well, dogs mark their area by their pee
i mark my area by toothbrush

i know i've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
Lenka- The Show

miss you but am tryin not to cry
mariah carey-bye bye

aku terlalu disibukkan oleh pikiranku

this is, however, the new phase of my life.
my dad leave me not because he dont love me.
he leave me because he wants me to be more mature.
to be much stronger than before.
just. in a different way.

i love you dad
as always

i love to fall asleep in a crowd

i hate me being so weak

it gets harder everyday

HAPPY BDAY , dear ME ;D

.don't go out and change please.

!!

ga. dunia ga sekecil itu

...

OH SHIT!

"ITS LIKE PEOPLE COULD SEE ME THROUGH THE GLASS..."

What are you made of?
Me? I am made of DNA strains, Proteins, and else

.My daddy hates me when i use heels.

"I usually type what am i thinking about at my phone and save it to the Draft. Its like a spontaneous thoughts. Fun!"

"I have thousands questions in my mind. Instead of finding the answers, i try to seek another questions as well."

B.I.O.L.O.G.Y

well, say HELLo to my little big biology book. he's my lover. he got like 800 pages inside. with a colourful pages which reeaaaalllly helps me to study (except for snakes part) biology. also meet his partner in crime, Biology WorkBook

he's kinder than my little big biology book (LB3). he always ask me a lot of questions about life. that makes me a lil bit pissed off .

yeah why i make this post? besok gw UTS Biology gilaaaa. dan gw blm ada what they call appetite buat bljr. aaargh. and its late at night already. need help?!
Or maybe i could use my friend methods to burn this two books and mix it with hot water or if u want, u could mix it with hot choco. nice.

so, today i had my first mid term test. with TOEFL as the first test. well it appeared a lil bit out of what i expected. it was not hard. but it's JUST hard (copying Mr.E's quote of the year). and Physics appeared waaaaay different from what i expected either. Mr.Sapto (this handsome Physics teacher which also our HomeRoom Teacher) said that the chapter we have to study are Chap.4-Chap.6. BUT (with single"T") . the paper that the teacher gave us were filled with Regular Physics that Pak Iding teach. we didnt even study from what Pak Iding teach. but thanks to Mr.Taufan he did gave us a lil clues (not an answers ,just the clues). it DID help us.

well, hope tomorrow's tests will be much better than todays'.
great day guys.

"Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy..."

When I look at you-Miley Cyrus

C.H.E.M.I.S.T.R.Y

so. Today is not one of the best day ever. I dont know why but today's lessons at school really made my mood screwed. booyeah! all science lessons are in one day. Biology, Physics, Chemistry (ohyeah love of my life) and nonscience? Mathe. i was so dead at school today. Also, Tuesday is special. why? because we learn 5 lessons. well ,we only learn 4 lessons on Mon,Wed,Thurs,Fri. and for the lucky guess, no, its not chemistry for the 5th. its Physics. the 'new chemistry'.

lets define shemistry and why i dont like it:

"Chemistry (from Egyptian kēme (chem), meaning "earth"^[1]) is the science concerned with the composition, behavior, structure, and properties of matter, as well as the changes it undergoes during chemical reactions.^[2] It is a physical science for studies of various atoms, molecules, crystals and other aggregates of matter whether in isolation or combination, which incorporates the concepts of energy and entropy in relation to the spontaneity of chemical processes. Modern chemistry evolved out of alchemy following the chemical revolution (1773).

Disciplines within chemistry are traditionally grouped by the type of matter being studied or the kind of study. These include inorganic chemistry, the study of inorganic matter; organic chemistry, the study of organic matter; biochemistry, the study of substances found in biological organisms; physical chemistry, the energy related studies of chemical systems at macro, molecular and submolecular scales; analytical chemistry, the analysis of material samples to gain an understanding of their chemical composition and structure. Many more specialized disciplines have emerged in recent years, e.g. neurochemistry the chemical study of the nervous system (see subdisciplines)."(source:Wikipedia)

why i dont like it? oh comeon! look at those words upthere. i havent read it , i already have my headache attack (lebay). chemistry never be simple. like what i learned today at school was a chapter with the combination of math and physics and chemistry (biology absent). complicated enough.

so, i have a plan (a joke one) if my dad wont give me a permission to study graphic design, i'll take chemistry study at university. TEKNIK KIMIA. mampus. mending gw ambil sastra arab (ga juga sih). yeah. thats how i hate chemistry.

i'll laugh at my self if one day in the future i become a chemistry experts. HAHAHA big joke.

Sometimes, i really wanna go free and make my self more mature. sometimes, i really wanna go and get my dreams. But what should i do? im still my daddy's little girl. i still cry. cry a lot. i still have my mom shouted at me when i do wrong. how could i know if now im ready to go and get my dream? how could i know?

because i never ready to find my self alone and miss everybody who usually always beside me everyday, every second. i never ready to face the real world. i never ready to cry, cry because my own stupidity.

because i never could open up my self. i really want to but nobody there to help me.

if u ask what is this about? well, i cant answer. i just wanna write what i think now. im not crying, relax.



just one question appear on my mind late these days. "are you sure you ready for it, ira?" and i never get the answer.

high school things arent like what i expected back 2 years ago. i never thought of my future yet. but now, just like in a snap, i have to decide. when i have decide, i have to be sure. and the problem, i still dont know.

teenagers things, yeah i know it is. i'll grab a bunch of book, i'll talk to thousands of people about my questions, conclusion?nobody answer. its all up to myself. hard.

no school teach you to be ready for the world. and i hate that.

i hate this time right here. when i dont even know what i wrote.

i want to. i want to see the world. and ready or not, i have to be ready. and guess what? i will!

i dont know what's the title of this post but i just wanna make it long enough to make you confuse which one is the post and which one is the title:)

-so,Ira,hows life?

well. life goes on just like the ordinary day. still breathing. still have to learn how "beautiful" chemistry is. and the good news is we're in Ramadhan month already. yeah, i admit that fasting is kinda torturing. but it makes my weigh decrease 2 kg. not so bad huuh? can't wait for the holiday!;D

-any new news?surprise us!

have i told you that i have a new haircut? yeah i call this supershort one. because, yes it IS short for me. my mom and some of my friends told me that my new haircut's cute. but sometimes i feel like a news reader. yeah. cute.

yeah short huh? my mom forced me to cut it. no i didn't cry. but i love it. now i am able to mess my hair up!.

-its a nice one,btw. hows ur IGCSE result?

well, my IGCSE results' fortunately not THAT bad. i was expecting that I'll get one "U" or even more for the scores. but it didn't appear like what i expected. 3 Cs, 1 D, and 1 E. and yes, E for chemistry and its not a surprise for me. FYI , score C here isn't that bad,either. My mom ,dad and my sist said that "ohmygod you got a lot of C.no B and A at all?" i hate that actually. C here are still a good score internationally. at least, i still could go to design school (amien for that). and yeah. thats all. request, please no more questions about IGCSE thanks.

-well,okay. so what do you do nowadays?

humm.. i dont do a lot of things. i do fasting, studying. well i don't know , i feel like i just love to study later this day (chemistry included). but what a lame, i love to study when i already passed the IGCSE exam. where did the love-to-study thing go when i have my IGCSE exam? mpff -.-

-i hear you have a lot of mumbles at chemistry. why is that?

well, maybe i never wrote this at my blog but yes, i hate chemistry. i just dont know why. everytime i try to learn it, whoaaaaa i got a sleep-attack. ga bisa konsen intinya. complicated huh? yeah. i dont think im a perfect match for Science class. i know. i am now in a science class.

-could see that. so, anything else?

oohyeah. i feel so sleepy,btw. so, thanks for the questions. will talk to you later. goodnight. :)

.LIFE GOES TOO FAST.
.could you slow it down for me?.

i love us :")

Cause i swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that I've waited for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
And it isn't gonna stop
No it just won't stop

(OneRepublic-Won't Stop)

jati diri?

kill kill time

well i found this at Thia's blog. sorry for repost this. just to kill time.teehee;D


Here it goes:
01. Bought everyone in the bar/cafe a drink/food
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain (Java & Sumatera)
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candle light dinner with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched the snow
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten celebration with champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked a stranger out
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Made a goal in a football game or a slam dunk in a basketball game
36. Danced like a fool and didn't care who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all islands in Indonesia
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Taken a backpack trip
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theatre
66. Visited thae Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played DVD/video for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo temporary or not
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on a television news program as an "expert"
83. Gotten flowers from someone for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Packed up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a TV game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on a photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for 30 hours in a 48 hour period
123. Visited more foreign countries than Indonesian cities
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailing
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author/book who you missed in school days, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospital care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

oh baby! if you just know it

karena dunia ini akan terus berputar
dan aku akan terus termenung menapaki tanah
mengajarkan diri ini bagaimana cara bernafas dengan benar
dan bagaimana cara menangis dengan tidak mengeluarkan air mata

karena aku tidak dapat menyentuh matahari
dan aku tidak dapat membelai bulan
walau memang aku ingin sekali
tak ada tangga yang mampu mengantarkan ku ke atas sana
bisa kah kau carikan untukku?

karena setiap aku menilik
jiwa itu selalu ada
menulis ini pun rasanya teriris
mengingat jiwa itu mendapat tekanan untuk pergi
sedangkan aku tersemen di tempat ini
tolong! jangan pergi
aku meringis!

karena aku tahu dunia ini terlalu hitam putih
terlalu hitam?
atau mungkin terlalu putih?

just got back from tanjung lesung last sunday. and i adore that place freakingly. and ,sure, for you guys who want to know do my skin still look as bright as usual, the answer is "HELL NO". yeah because i got a sunburned especially at my shoulder. fool me, i used tank on the way to pulau peucang which means 3 hours under the sun. but just ignore the skin! we really had our fun there! :D

the cottage that we spent a night at tanjung lesung was so cozy, we had our own private pool at the cottage and at the first night we play Marcopolo at the pool. and i got some blue bruised at my knees and it hurts ;D the next day we went to pulau peucang and we spent a night ,not at a cottage, but at a tent. a big one. its the first time for me to stay at a tent and i love it. except for the part that actually at the midnight there was a SNAKE (yes, S.N.A.K.E) circled our tent. and my teacher just told me and my friends today. yeah, what a BIG SURPRISE! maybe the snake knew that there's a girl at the tent who has an enormous phobia at it species. thanks God it didnt come into the tent and pass through me.im so dead if it was.

we did snorkeling ,which was so fun and a little walking at the forest. the sea water's still clear. and if you compare it with the water at ancol, it actually not the proper comparator. too far i guess. and yes, we dont see any one take a bath at the sea.

even though we got darkened after the thematic-project trip. we DO want to go back there. still need more time there. but please, NO SNAKE INVITED thanks.

photos are coming right up. school's still hard HARD! and im still a freak at chemistry as usual. i'll tell you as soon as possible when i've got smarter at chemistry:D

we jump, we shout . and we owned the sea

kelamaan di bdg emg bikin nangis-.-

well. it's been a while i haven't post anything here at my blog. i were kinda busy for my beloved sisters wedding at bandung. all of my cousins and my aunts also my uncles came from medan. and also my brother. but tomorrow all of them are going to go back medan and melbourne. and im terrifyingly sad about it:(

i just afraid of the loneliness after they're all gone:"( yeah like being alone here at home is really not a good news. no, there're no benefit for being alone. still, no freedom. still, a lot of rules. still, under pressure:(

there're a bunch of days with a lot of wonderful ,extraordinary days with them that i dont want it to be over but they have to.and i hate it. HATE IT SO MUCH!

last sunday when i went back to jakarta from bandung with gisya and erin i spent a half of the journey for crying bcause i think about things upthere.

my sister's wedding was such a bless for my family.because all of us gathered in one place in one time. and i love that. we cried and we laughed. :") i'll miss that moment. cant wait for bang ukan's wedding.cant wait for the next joy. teehee:D

cute huh?:D

yeah!

so, sodara sodara gw dr medan baru pada nyampe di jakarta. aaaa gw sneng baaaanget. spupu spupu gw yang kecil kecil, paman gw, bibi gw. ada kali tu ber10 lebih haha.
pas mereka nyampe kita jalan ke GI. well, i dont even feel ashame bcause they're from village. yeah. my mom and my dad didnt come from a socialite or a rich family. we come from a village. so, we did have a great time togetheer!YAY! gw sndiri juga ikutan norak sbenernya hehe. di GI kita ngeliat dancing fountain bntr trus makan di Y&Y rame rame. yah walopun gw smpet ngerasa pusing. entah knp tiba tiba ilang gr gr ktawa ktawa sama spupu spupu gw. ga pernah ga ktawa deh ma mrk. they gave comments for every persons who dress in a weird way ,but thats what really made my day.

skrg mrk smua udh pada di bdg. well, its a countdown to my sisters wedding. bener bener ga sabar deh. cant really wait for the croooooowd. abi erin and gisya are planning to attend the wedding. so i wont be alone:D

btw, gw udh masuk sklh. wow. dpt kls baru aja gtuh. di kls 12 inter yang dlu. and i hate the chair! bikin pegel banget. dan pas hari rabu pulang jam stgh 4 aja dong. 3 jem fisika lagi. mnrt lo aje dah. dan mulai skrg ada ade kls yang nebeng gw namanya arman. mantan ade kls gw di DH. he's cuuute! haha ngefans gw ma dia. abi ama gisya juga jadi ikutan.

aaaaand. i wish my baby, erin, who's sick right now, to get well soon! i miss ya darrrlaaa muah:p

have a great weekend you guys!
peace out

hari ini hari senin ; benssyong ; sakit ; ARE A BIG DEAL!

demi apa hari ini udh masuk. (kalo kata fadhil "demikian dan seterusnya,ra") . namun dengan sangat menyesal (dan mungkin doa salah satu tmn gw-.-) gw ga masuk dikarenakan sakit. yak slmat ra! pusing, batuk, pilek, pegel, lemes, pusing lagi menemani gw slama beberapa hari ini. giliran mau masuk sekolah aja sakit!-.- well,yeah i miss school a lot. terutama temen temennya. dah hampir sebulan ga ketemu ya kangen lah ya pasti. gw pengen ngeliat siapa aja yang membesar selain gw hahaha

Lusa kemaren tepatnya malem Minggu. gw , kak icha, bang hendra, bang ukan dah kak maya berniat malem mingguan. yah alesan gw ke bokap sih menutup liburan;p kita ke PVJ .ngopi di Black Canyon.ngeksis, ngegahul, ngomongin org, nambah dosa, ngemil, au dah ngapain aja disitu yang pasti PVJ makin malem makin kaya antrian sembako. rame gilaaa. (makin rame makin nambah dosa) . di black canyon ampe jm 10an. dr situ kita bosen bingung mau kmn akhirnya bang ukan ngajak makan serabi di setiabudi .di dkt enhaii. and guess what. tmptnya rame gilaaaaaa. kita udh bingung yakan mau duduk dimana.eh ada meja yang cuma di tmpatin 2 org cowo. dgn beraninya bang hendra numpang dudul disitu dong.pas gw liat ga ada yg mencurigakan.oke fine. cowo yang satunya ganteng. -.- yang satunya yah you know. gw kira mereka normal. eh tiba tiba dtg yang satunya. NGELAMBAY yuuuuu,. dan mereka duduk di dkt bang ukan dan bang hendra yang PHOBIA sama benssyong. yak gw ga bisa brnti ktawa dr situ. how lucky they are;p nyampe rumah jm stgh 12. untuk pertama kalinya gw pulang malem cuma ga ditelponin sama bkp nykp .

dan entah mengapa belakangan ini gw jadi susah tidur. insomnia. minimal gw tidur jm 12 dah. parah kan. abis pergi itu aja gw tdr jm stgh 2 bangun jam stgh 5. kejam memang.

hari ini kerjaan gw cuma tidur, bangun, minum obat, tidur lagi, bangun, makan, minum obat,tidur. gimana gw ga gendut-.- tobat gw

well then.
doakan kls 2 ini akan menjadi tahun yang lebih baik. ;p
muah!
AL

oh!holiday

Demi apa ya liburan udh mau selese lagi. uurgh! ga mauuuu! gw udh cukup enjoy dengan kehidupan bandung dan temen temen gw dibandung . di banding gw mesti sendiri dijakarta kaya anak ilang. walaupun emang konsekuensinya gw dibandung ya itu, membesar-.- kalo boleh gw pindah kebandung gw mau!BANGET!

yah berpindah dari masalah bandung. sebentar lagi kaka gw nikahan. AND I CANT WAIT FOR IT! cie akhirnya gw punya kebaya. ada 3. warna merah, emas, sama emas ada pink softnya gtuh. aaargh i love those things. freakingly! walaupun gw tau kaka gw udh deg degan setengah mampus nungguin tuh nikahannya. yah jangan ampe aja nnti gw punya keponakan gw berubah profesi jadi pengasuh anak yakan-.-

well then, gw berdoa supaya nnti pas tgl 13 ga ada upacara. amiiin amiiin yaAllah.

here's my brother

Kak Maya.Kak Icha.and that boy over there, Kak agung



Yance.my Baby muah


Fadhil


Luthfi

Ayu.Dania


<3

STILL.
OUCH!

OUCH!

out of reach!

look!

what you need is just look back

and see what's the past looked like

then now you could learn that its not easy

to breathe the air

and to walk in this life

have you ever see the tears outside your window?

that the tears outside are even more painfull

your tears' just a little pinch in their hand

open your window and shout!

please,cant you see that all these things are dying

and all you do is freeze in your feet?

move!

because your life isn't more precious than their lifes

if you dont even move your clean feet

HOLA HELL-O HOLIDAY!

im on my vacation now. and as like my prediction, i'll spend my holiday at bandung. which mean i'll say goodbye to the internet for a while. i started my holiday at 15 of june. which i spent first by went to dufan with my beloved friends. yeah. we had a lotta fun! as me,a scary-pig,never have a braveness to ride an extreme ride.BUT, because all my friends LOVE those EXTREME RIDE, i force my self really hard so finally i ride halilintar (once) , kicir kicir (five times) , kora kora (sheesh!who created this thing?!) , arung jeram, and almost all ride there. i know. psycho. but really, i never feel so happy like that day ;) THANKS GUYS! MUAH!

so, now im at jakarta. just to surf the internet and hang out with my old friends. 2 weeks at bandung really makes me feel like a polar bear who's hibernating haha im making a new great friends at bandung. so, bandung gets a lot better now. haha

and the good news is bang ukan is here now. yaaaay!;p

well thats all.
have a great holiday mate!
peace out
al!

its when i look back
and all the things that i left behind is such an empty
also,when i look forward
i see all things turn blur
and that's just when my steps are shaking

i want to do something!
so my steps aren't shaking anymore
but there's nothing near me
and thats just when my faith is fading

OHMYGOD!
im going to fall
help!!

no, nothing

so, i dont know why but i prefer to post with english today.
know what,friday will be the last day for IGCSE..sheesh, feel like just a moment ago i shouted and get upset because of those how-if-i-just-call-it-so-hard-exams for the opening..now,its gonna be over!! aaarwr...

so,around this week, i found my self staring at all the fashion-blogs i found. (and yes) i feel like a geek (i just get an idea to change my blogname;p).. aaaargh! tell me when i could get those cool clothes ,shoes and bags and then tell me when could i shrink this big-body a bit?

i'm tryin to find some tank-tops.and i found one at Mango today.its colourful leopard pattern.and its freakingly cute (and the mose important thing,its not that pricey). and when i just wanna try that cute thing, my dad called and asked where am i and said he's at Sogo.and asked me and my mom to went there.URG! REALLY HAVE TO HAVE THAT TANK-TOP!

and i still try to find a nice oxford shoes, a big sneakers , a nice boot, and a heels. ALSO, a cure scarfs. yes i know,im a big dreamer..

well, i dont need bag because my mom just bought me a Longchamps Backpack, not actually a backpack. its too simple for it. its navy blue. and cute! teehee..thanks mom..

So, the next project for my fashion to-do-list are find those things up there , make this hair longer, and shrink this body..yeah ..whatever...


SOOOOOOOOO (another so) , after chemistry Multiple Choice's over this friday, i plan to go eat with my friends after that i plan to go to bandung. i miss it a lot. weird.

well,have a great rest of the day,darl.
peace out
AL

the thing is...
this little girl need friends
well, to play in the playground
to play that old doll
to get sweat under the sun
so, please....................
she's nothing but just a new cry baby

kecanduan solitaire-.-

iya gw kecanduan maen solitaire sekarang gara gara di hape gw skrg ada tuh maenan.klo shari ga maen aja tangan gw gatel. jelek banget yekan? solitaire pula-.-

jadi hari ini niat gw buat bljr biology kandas di tgh jalan .. gw jadi ga ada niat sama skali. biology. ohmaigat. mnrt lo. enek enek dah lo sono baca buku biologi gw yang brtnya 2 kg. gw timbang sndiri loh.
sharian gw di dpn komp. ga jelas ngapain. yang pasti browsing sharian. mata gw udh lumayan jereng. tapi jerengnya lebih mnding drpd baca biologi...

doain gw buat bsk ya..
smg aja yang diAtas ngebantu gw..
amiiin.

for NXN..AYOOOOH SMANGAAAAT. abis bsk. sisa 2 ujian lagi.....!! inget libur...-.-

peace out.
AL

lagi pengen ngetik aja

hari ini sabtu dong. yihaa. gw norak sama hari sabtu skrg. soalnya mencari hari untuk lenjeh lenjeh susah bener yak. hari ini rencananya gw mau ke PIM ,ngegahul sama fadhil dan gitasya (haha ni anak berdua blm knalan sama skali). kan ga lucu gw sabtu minggu lumuten di rumah. yah jalan dikit lah.

jadi kmrn itu ada IGCSE biology paper 1 (multiple choice). yeah alhamdulillah bisa sih. sialnya, masa ada soal disuruh pilih manusia (homo sapiens) tulisan benernya kaya apa. ada yg huruf nya kecil smua lah, ada yg Hnya doang yang gede. gw lupaaaa bnget. bego bener dah ah. trus pas akhir akhir gw udh kaya org gila. nyelesein tuh nomor aja gw mikir 15 menit (lebay sih). yah akhirnya gw milih yang Homo sapiens dan sepertinya bener. (ya ga sih?)

dan, keadaan gw blkgn ini lagi ancur banget. batuk, pilek, pusing, ngerasa aga demam, ngantuuuuuk mulu dan gw ngerasa muka gw kaya bengkak smua. pas hari apa gituh masa gw tidur abis dr sklh tuh dari jm 11 ampe jam 5 sore. trus jam stgh 10 udh tidur lagi, emg kayanya gw perlu tidur banyak banyak dah. kcapean gr2 seminggu bolak balik bandung jakarta 3 kali-.-'

ehmm
sebenernya post gw ga penting sih ya
lagi pengen ngetiki. gatel tangan gw
haha
have a great saturday baby!

peace out
AL

Random Facts About Me

1. Has her BIG phobia on SNAKES!!!!!! ( gitasya and erin even think that snakes are cute...-.-)
2. Is a BIG SPENDER and still don't know how to spend her money as wise as possible. could barely hold her self to shop something that actually not really her NEED. so, help?
3. is an art freak-er. well, she sees this world as a compound of art. and art have to be respected. and art will always be perfect!
4.is a Lazy-pig... yeah she'll never figure out how to throw this lazy thing out. another,help?
5.thinks that size doesn't matter. yeah because she has a problem on size either. diet is a DIE with a 't'. that's what Garfield said.
6.a book eater. not actually eat it. but.. yeah..you know what i mean right.
7.a big fan of the Beatles. its because the influence of her friends named tami and nabila.
8.is a not-that-kind-of-an-'it'-girl.. she prefer to be called a nerd. and she likes it.
9.is a DORK on chemistry (and physics... and also math...and also biology).english is the only thing she could survive in.
10.is the last in series of my family. so her dad spoils her a lot. well,she doesnt like to be spoiled (well, okay sometime she likes it) , because her sist keeps telling her that she's a spoiler and that sucks!

yeah..
10 are more than enough. it did kill time . hihi..
well.. in a few hours i'll face biology exam.
and i still havent study a thing til now.
yeah hell..

great friday dude
peace out
AL

jai hoo!

gw udh nntn angels and demons buat yang kedua kalinya dong haha ajibb. iya jadi hari ini rencananya gw mau diungsikan di rumah gitasya berhubung om sa mau nganterin altis ke bengkel. ternyata pas udh akhir2 tutor fisikanjrit yang dilaksanakan kurang pagi itu si gisya diajak nntn sama abi sama mamanya abi. yah akhirnya gw juga ikutan.ga tau malu ya gw haha. kita juga ngajak erin eh ternyata erinnya mau ngambil darah ga tau buat apa. jam 10an kita ke rumah gitasya naik bajaj! yay akhirnya gw merasakan juga naik bajaj. asik yaaa. ketagihan deh.-.- iya trus nyampe rumah gisya gw bli bakmi pendi dulu buat makan siang trus makan di rumah gisya, abi makan indomie gisya makan telor ceplok yang hasilnya jadinya kaya telor dadar trus kata gisya baunya kaya karet -.- trus abis itu kita ke kamar gisya milihin baju buat dia, iya sialnya cuma gw satu satunya yang pake seragam yak selamat. trus abis itu jam 12an mamanya abi dateng trus jalan ke planet hollywood.eh pas di dkt benhil macet padahal udh jam 12.40 an gituh. ga dapet deh akhirnya kita ambil jam selanjutnya.

trus pas lagi di tengah macet mama nelpon. eh ternyata mama lagi jalan ke jakarta. untungnya boleh mau nntn. jadi ntr tuh yang ngejemput om wawan.jemput dirumah gisya.

pas nyampe plahol kan jam 1an tuh.kita makan dlu (yang makan sih cuma mama abi,gw dan gisya DIPAKSA buat makan) di hoka hoka bento. udh kan tuh abis itu kita ke 21 nya. bli tiket trus main mobil2an trs main time crisis. trus erin nyusul kitaaaaa. ahahahaha iya katanya diambil darahnya sakit gituh.

trus kita masuk ke studio 1. gw bawa perlengkapan pepsi+nachos (actually the nachos getting more delicious as the last nachos i tasted at 21 tasted so yuck!) trus udh tuh nntn. gw duduh di sblh erin sama abi. I ADORE THE MOVIE A LOT!!!!! iya emg lbih seru novelnya sih. cuma aaaaah pemeran Patrick nya GANTEEEENG. bukan ganteng sih mukanya gimanaaaaa gituh sama ada satu polisinya ganteng aaaah!!!i wonder how they could do the take because as i know vatican is so close-minded country. but 2 thumbs up!!! moga moga digital fortress sama deception point difilmin juga =D

trus abis itu kita pulang. macet di jalan,. kita gila gilaan bukan gila gilaan juga sih,.ngegosipin abi sama max/arya/ ato (ehem) raup-an.hahaha iya jadi spnjang jalan ke rumah gisya kita ketawa tawa ampe skrg gw nyampe rumah gw pusing cape hahahaa

yeah well, abi gisya erin mamanya abi, thanks guys, i really enjoy today. as u guys always there when i need you all. MUAAAAAH.ILYSM!

iya bsk gw libur sehari. jumat ESL listening. and after that we're free from tests til 1st of june.
gw masih nyari ide bsk gw mau ngapain aja.
sjauh ini sih gw mau: bikin graffiti the beatles, mindain data komp ke laptop, tidur, nyelesein novel pramoedya ananta toer yang baru gw bli (keren gila novelnya) sama mau lenjeh2.=)

aaaaahh,,
yeah i'll enjoy these days .
i'll try=)

peace out
AL

tragedi matematika

yihaa,.gw tadi siang jam 1.25-3.55 iye 2 jem 30 menit.lama yekaaaan. itu yg namanya leher gw udh kaya mau patah. udh banyak, lama lagi. mending gampang ini sih naujibileh susahnya.

iya jadi knp gw bilang tragedi soalnya dampak dr ulangan itu ga ilang ampe skrg. jadi 5 menit sebelum selese gw udh kluar dluan tuh. nyampe luar gw udh kaya org mabok. iye mabok sama math. gw nyampe luar terdiam, ngedengerin tmn2 gw yg pada ngebahas soal2 math tadi. gw ngambil ipod, duduk di dkt pintu kls, nangis. hemm aga ga worth it sih nangis gr2 math. cuma gw nyesek mamen susah beudh. jadi gr2 itu gw jadi bete, pgn mukul tembok (oke ini lebay). betenya masi ampe skrg. jadi smua org di rumah hampir gw cuekin . untungnya udh aga redaan dikit gr2 solat maghrib tadi. yah jadi gituh deh. ga bisa di bilang tragedi juga sih. cuma yah lumayan bikin gw ngerasa jadi manusia paling bego di muka bumi (kalo kata mute, apa dah ira.)

hemm bsk biologi mamen.
BIOLOGIIII.
BIIIOOOOOOLOOOOOOOGIIIIIIII!
MNRT LOOO?!
iya susah
yah ini gw mau bljr.
doain yah

peace out
AL

im single and freakingly happy!

jadi hari ini hari minggu. hell yeah mamen! bsk udh senen aja. so, from now on should i love sunday or what?

di postingan kali ini gw pgn menyebut kan list list smua hal yang blkgn ini lagi ada dipikiran gw.
so,
I, RECENTLY...:

1. in love with a boy, he actually freakin me out for being so cute. tapi yah sprtinya dia udh punya gbtn lain. ya udh lah ya. FYI, dia bukan anak jupan=)
2. in love with ANGELS AND DEMONS. sebenernya gw udh baca bukunya tuh udh lamaaa banget. 2/3 taun yang lalu gituh. makanya gw udh lupa crtnya.but afterall, banyak crt yg dipotong yah? kok kayanya kurang gimanaaa gitu dibandingin novelnya.
3. freak about The Beatles. pertama sih gara gara tami niii nularin ke gw -.- trs entah knp gw jadi dikelilingi oleh orang orang yang suka the beatles. masa kata bang ukan selera gw makin aneh sih gara2 suka sama The Beatles. hemm
4. feel so lonely late this days. i dont know why. bahkan di hape gw pun skrg jadi jarang ada sms yang masuk. yeah guys, i feel like a new nerd in town right now. and it sucks
5. getting thinner. HUAHAHAHAHAHA. becanda abis gw. tapi entah knp gw merasa seperti itu. bagi kalian yang telah melihat saya cuma ga merasakan perubahan dr size badan gw, harap beritahu. apadah gwe.
6. ga pake bb lagi!! hell yeah akhirnya. gw merasakan kerugian dalam memakai blackberry. pertama, gw jadi ga konsen belajar kalo di sklh, slalu ada notifications dr fb, ato email. kedua, pulsanya kerasa banget dah. ketiga, ngerasa gahul gwee.
7. found that facebook and another social site are no longer fun. ngeboseniiin gitu gitu doang. expect something more and different
   
8. really miss my baby bro outhere. aaah bang ukan kapan sih lo balik. njrit gw kangen banget mamen!
9. try to walk through my day as a new me, a nerd i mean. yeah whatsoever about that.

yah itu lah yang sdg ada di pikiran gw.
oh yeah men.
gw emg lagi ngerasa berantakan banget belakangan ini.
apakah ini dampak dari IGCSE?
mungkin
memang
100% sangaaat mungkin

udh ah
mau sarapan dlu
dadah

peace out
AL

:'(

YEAH! I AM SAD! I FEEL UPSET! SO DONT YOU CARE?!

IGCSE! again

iya dah, bsk gw udah IGCSE aja gituh. jadi hari ini gw nyampe di jakarta jam 11.jam 12 ke rumah mutia.jmput dia.trs ke sklh. tutor fisika. yeah akhirnya gw merasakan benefit dari tutor fisika -.- abis itu jenguk gitasya-beibi-hani-bani-bala-bala yang lagii terperangkap di siloam gr2 db. GWS YA GISYA SAYAAAANG=). yeah abis jenguk kita ngebucks (cieh gayanya) di lobby siloam.aga kurang ngajar memang ngebucks dirumahsakit.

abis itu nyampe rumah jam 6.mandi, ganti baju, solat terus les ampe jam stengah 9. STRES GWEEEE! hemm. bsk fisika. paper 6. alternative to practical. emg sih cuma perlu mindain data.cuma bahasanya itu looooh. bisa ga sih di translate dulu ke bahasa indo klo ga batak gituh.

gw lagi bner2 ga mood buat bljr skrg, kpl gw puyeng, ga napsu makan dr tadi pagi alhasil gw ga makan hr ini (ngemil sih ho oh), dan stress pula,.gimana pelajaran mau masuk coba. hemm..

iya.blkgn ini gw lagi ada masalah sama bb gw. jadi males makenya. ribet mamen.-.-

last weekend at bandung was sooooo much fun. we have our sat-night at pvj. rame rame.ada kak ichang, bang fahmi, ade,mba maya,kak alfi, kak munif&istri. entah knp gw sng bgt.mungkin gr2 itu hari trkhir gw untuk bersenang2 sblm IGCSE.hemm. banyak foto2 lucu dan foto2 yang gw suka banget,.cuma kayanya gw ga bisa upload skrg,. ditunggu yah

lanjuuut

so, hr minggu kmrn gw jalan sama kak ichang, bang fahmi dan bang hendra. makan mie kocok terajib yang pernah gw makan, bis itu karokean ahoy di pvj abis itu ngopi bntr. asik . karokeannya gila gilaan. gw nyanyiin boom boom pownya BEP. huaa i adore that song. trus gw nyanyi twist and shout nya the beatles.begonya ga ada yang tau lagu itu -.-

hemm

yah sekian dlu deh
gw lagi bingung mau ngapain
mungkin baca buku fisika

gr8t day guys!
AL

ga tau mau dikasi judul apa

So, here i am.making my way to bandung. Iye gw tau slasa udh IGCSE kok gw ke bndung. Yah dr pd gw stress dirumah ngerjain past papers.mnding gw ke bdg bukan?

Yah jadi skrg gw lagi dimobil. Diluar ujan. Dan macet.ditambah lagu you're beautiful yg mengalun dr radio. Hemm. Somehow this situation could change my mood. I was at the gOod mood.but now, i feel somekind of .... Something.

Udh ah.jadi melow abis.
Yak jadi gw tadi abis tutor math.sama ma'am maria. Ngerjain prediction Qs. Nothing special.

Hemmmm...

What'll you do if you have a crush on someone but this guy seems to be a flirt-er ? I feel like he's what i've been searching for. Kriik bahasanya

Bingung mau nggmg apa lg

Yah

Gw mncoba buat nikmatin prjalanan ini.

Sambil dgrin lagu here,there,everywherenya the beatles. Reminds me of bandung:)

Have a great w'end y'all

Muah
AL•v•

help! i need somebody!

gw kesepian belakangan ini. yeah kesepian abis mamen. mama papa kak icha di bandung. bang ukan di melbourne . how could this be any worse? -.-
yeah like i said before. ini teh contrast pisan sama yang ke pangandaran kemaren.
i cried yesterday, i mean a lot.
i just need somebody nowadays.
these things-the IGCSE, being so alone, and the fact that i always compare my self to other- really make me feel bad!

paling males klo nympe rumah dr sklh trus naik ke kamar , diem, and the only thing i could hear is nothing!

ada ga enk ama enknya sih sndirian dirumah

enknya ya bebas lo mau ngapain aja silahkan, klo bljr mah tng tng aja.

ga enknya ya itu tadi. sepi banget.dan klo ga ada kerjaan ga tau mau ngapain. paling main internet ato ga maen.

hemmm
bingung mau nulis apa..
well then
see ya!
AL

p.s sblm tutor bio tadi sore gw makan bakso, cabenya 4 sendok penuh,. hasilnya? angelina jolie kalah =p

ohmaigat!senen lagi. sekolah lagi

heyyyhooooooooo. akhirnya gw kembali lagi didpn komputer. dan dikarenakan gw udh mumet sama bahasa inggris disklh marilah kita kmbali ke bahasa indonesia yang baik dan benar menurut ejaannya-__-

Jadi, hari ini sekolah. yeah. men. gw aja ga percaya klo hr itu udah senen aja. senen=upacara=rambut lepek=keringetan="anjrit ni pidato panjang abis". pas dirumah gw udh berdoa. Tuhan, tolong dong ujan tiba tiba. sekali iniiiii aja. cuma ternyata Yang Diatas tidak setuju dengan permohonan bego gw itu. ngiiiik.

dan mumpung gw lagi ga ada kerjaan, gw pgn cerita tentang "one of the best days i've ever had in my liiiiiiiiiiife" atau diindonesiain "salah satu hari terbaik dihidup gw".

yeah.

jadi minggu lalu, tepatnya hari senen, nyokap gw ke jakarta sama gw (bolos dong) dr bandung soalnya hari minggunya kemaleman pulang dari acara simpedes (ada samsons! krik krik). nyampe di jakarta kita langsung ke hotel athlete century soalnya nyokap gw dan temen temennya nginep disitu gara2 ada turnamen bowling bersama di plaza senayan. dalam pikiran gw, GAYA YE IBU IBU SKRG MAEN BOWLING. nyokap gw sih cuma jadi penyemangat -.-
trus abis dr century kita ke ps. makan dan nmnin latian bowling. ada kali tuh stengah abad latiannya. lama b3udH. saking lamanya gw ditawarin maen dan dilatih sama ada lah itu platih dari bandung namanya mas yogi.

maen 5 game

nilai tertinggi 99

nilai terendah 25

mampus bego abis

biasanya gw maen bowling gw sisa lempar doang. dan gw baru tau ternyata bowling ada pemanasannya juga grooook

yeah kita skip ampe hari slasa malem

jadi slasa malem nyokap nelpon, nyuruh gw nginep di century sambil bawa seragam buat bsk. ajib yekan gw ke sekolah dari hotel. kesannya gimanaaaa gitu. mungkin dikira mas mas hotelnya gw ngungsi gara2 rumah gw kebanjiran-.-nyokap bilang sih gara2 ga ada temen tidur. pas gw disana, tidurnya ber 4 dong sama tmn2 nyokap. sama aja yekan krik.pagi2 gw ke sekolah pake sragam (yaiyalah).trus malemnya gw disuru nginep lagi. bedanya ini bareng sama bu turi (tukang urut langganan mama , the best mamen) . sama kaya kmrn , paginya gw kesekolah lagi (kamis).

rencananya kan jumat bolos tuh buat pre wedd kaka gw ( meen udh pre wedd aja dia), nah kamis sore tuh gw ktmuan ama nyokap ama bu turi, langsung ke bandung. nyampe bandung jam stengah 9an. gw kira ke pangandarannya (lokasi kak icha prewedd) bsk pagi, ternyata langsung dong. mau mati ga. ga sih

brgkt jam stengah 10 nyampe jam 2 pagi. jalannan sepi, om dadang nyetir udh kaya pembalap ep-1 (f1 maksudnya). nyampe sana gw satu kamar sama tnte beti dan bu turi , connecting door sama kak icha sama mba maya.

disinilah the best days of my life gw berawal. gw bingung sih mau ngejelasinnya. soalnya klo gw jlsin ga bakal seru. im a bad story-teller to be honest;p

bsknya liat kak icha sama bang fahmi foto pre wedd di pinggri pantai megang balon warna warni. gw bawa SLR tuh. pengen foto2 juga gw. tapi dengan kebegoan gw. gw ga bawa memory cardnya, ketinggalan di card reader. beli tuh. dapet. pas dinyalain............ batrenya abis...





...krik...


huff. sabar gela gw.

yeah gw liat fotonya. njrit lucu abis! jadi ada tim forografernya gitu, ada om munif, kak alfi, dan 3 org lainnya. gw ngiler ama kameranya -.-akhirnya gw gunain fish eye gw (amin gw bawa).
abis dr pantai, makan siang trus ke pasir putih . pake prahu. aaah gw suka ama pantainya. asik banget. banyak monyetnya, dan ibu ibu berjilbab tmn mama berhasil dikerjain ama monyet monyet itu.hahahahahahahahahahahahaha ehem jahat pisan teh si ira. smpt ngerendem kaki (dan hampir ngerendem bb+ipod gw juga) di pantai sama mba maya.ngobrol ngobrol ngalor ngidul.

bsknya foto di tmpt kaya pemancingan tradisional gitu. klo diliat sih jelek buat foto, cuman mamen, gw salut sama mas munif, fotonya kuereeeeeen b3udH. kak icha pake baju bridal, she looked freakingly beautiful!

abis itu kita makan siang dkt pantai batu karas (kalo ga salah , i forget the line of the story) nah di restorannya itu abis makan kita naik speed boat, sama papa mama om mbuy, yg lainnya naik getek hahaha. gw ngeliat papa ktawa ama senyum terus tuh rasanya SENENG BANGET!

abis itu kita ke batu karasnya. kita berenaaaang, di pantai. aaaaakhrnyaaaaaa. itu yang nyebur tuh gw,kaka icha, mama, papa, om mbuy, tante beti, om ade, om munif, sama kak alfi. nyettt itu asik banget, yang namanya IGCSE itu ilang dr pikiran gw. abis itu bilas di toilet restoran .trus abis mandi kata mama masa ada uler di luar tadi. gila klo gw ngeliat gw bisa pingsan bediri kali (since i have my freak phobia on that things!). trus balik ke hotel.

malemnya kita api unggun-an di pinggir pantai, aaaaah i love this part, bintangnya banyak bangeeeeeeeeeeeeet + ada pnyanyi yg kaya dijimbaran gitu yang pake kecrek kecrek sama gitar sama gendang + api unggun + dinner + manusia manusia yang saya cintai .romantis paraaaaah. trus disini, ada frame yang foto bareng2. di foto itu tangan gw segede monas-.-

bsknya kita foto2 bareng2 lagi. mama papa kak icha bang fahmi bang hendra om mbuy tante beti sama om iyen. di pantai gitu ada karangnya (dr htel ke pantai gw naik pespa dong) lucuuuuu, trus gw foto brdua sama kak icha, which we posed like we're in a photo box. and there's these photo, jadi crtnya itu prewedd papa mama, gw kak icha sama bang fahminya tuh yang bingung gitu, hhhhaa

unfortunately, bang ukan ga ikut. aaaaaaaaaah knp sih lo harus kuliah di melbourne nan jauh ituuuu!

trus abis itu, ini hari minggu ya, which is hari trkhir, kita siap2 . jalan ke bandung. trus makan siang di banjar, trus take the last picts di sawah2 gituh, percaya ga percaya, dengan monyetnyam GW NGELIAT ULER AJA GITUH LAGI NGELIAK LIUK MENJIJIKAN DI SUNGAI WARNA ITEM,KECIL NYEBELIN!!!

trus kita ke sawah satunya lagi, terjal, dan gw jatoh aja gituh, untungnya ga kelumpur. trs abis itu pulang deh.

nyampe bandung gw siap2 trus langsung ke jakarta sama bang fahmi sama om wawan.

aaaah nyampe rumah, gw tiduran, dan ga percaya klo gw udh di jakarta. gw pgn nangis. sepiiii. kontras banget sama 3 hari yang rame asik banget itu. kapan ya bisa gituh lagi? :'''''''''''(

btw, doain buat IGCSE gw ya. that thing really freakin me out, gw lagi males malesnya, sdgkan ulangannya minggu dpn. ajib.

aaah im waiting for a message!!!!!!! :))))))

peace out
AL~

Satu Hal

Kenapa manusia sekarang mendambakan kesempurnaan?
Saya tidak munafik
Saya sendiri ingin menjadi sempurna
Siapa yang tidak?
Tapi manusia sekarang menjadi lebih licik,
Hanya untuk sepotong kata
Kesempurnaan
Apakah pantas?

Well, semua orang tau tidak ada yang bisa sempurna
Mendekati pun tidak akan ada
Namun mengapa pengorbanan demi kesempurnaan itu terus dilanjutkan?
Aneh...

Bagi saya, kesempurnaan itu hanya untuk sesuatu yang tidak nyata
Yang even impossible untuk diwujudkan
Lihat saja manusia terpopuler dijagat raya ini
Saya yakin apa yang kita lihat itu bukan dia yang sesungguhnya
Mereka masih menangis juga bukan?

Satu hal yang pasti
Dunia ini sempurna untuk hidup
Namun isinya tidak akan pernah sempurna
So, don't try to be perfect
Perfection is ridiculous

*entah kenapa otak gw lagi stuck dengan perfection.ck*

Peace out

"why we are so unbeliavable fucked up?"

i got that quote from radityadika's blog.well i love the words. ' why we are so unbeliavable fucked up'.

lets move on

today i just wanna wishing good luck to all of my fellas out there . well who now facing the UAN and soon , IGCSE. i know i know. i've written a lot of IGCSE words here. but what could i do. its driving me nuts here. -.-'

to ENXAIN,for the ESL Oral Test tomorrow, i know we could do this. all we have to do is believin your self, yegaa? (padahal gw sndiri masi keringet dingin).yang bikin ribet sih rules nya. no fillers, no repetition, no laughing.-.- after this. we'll "only" facing the last storm, the real IGCSE. after that we'll have fun huh?


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so i found this gold oxford shoes at plaza senayan and in just one snap, i fall in love with that shoes (weirdo). i even found my self daydream about it.unfortunately my mother was in a bad mood. so she didnt let me bought it :''(

my old-bad-habit comes back. i love to graffiti-ing later this day.

here're some










































































yeah. its a mess huh? i love to draw nowadays. maybe because i could easily express my feelings.when i do blog walking, i see other people draw. and i feel that im suck at art. but as i said in my previous post, art will always be good right.the "born to shop" is such a disaster. look at the yellow. haha and the one next to it is also a mess. yeah i did a lot of mess here.but i love it! the "lucky..." you know this words huh? its from jmraz.ft.coco "lucky". this song has it owns
after all.memory for me. don't have to explain it any further.i wrote it down at my agenda which now transform into my drawing book=)the scary oict , is actually the result of my face scanned. it included my neilgaiman book, and my fish-eye,and mybb=)

and the " when you just need someone". i draw it when im so upset with one person. and when i feel so freakingly lonely, i put a stress on the "need". i don't know why.

after all. i draw all of these graffiti on my own. its original. no copying . =) im i know im not a good drawer but all of this things are more than enough for me.

and one more thing,
im so in love with one boy.
not handsome,not clever, but there's one thing that attracted me. aaaah! you!


hit some hot choco sure do me good now
sincerely,
Al:)

yeah.i am

I'm not okay. I'm in pain :'(

could i?

i just couldn't fight this feeling.
while you like someone so much
too much until you couldn't fight his appearance in you head
what will you do?
could i call it love?
cause what i know,love is much bigger than this
but he keeps appeared in my head
everyday!
no lie.
sometimes,it does hurt
the fact that he's far away
not so far away
but it IS far (see i dont even understand what i wrote here)
and the fact that
he's too good for me and
there's no way he will see me as someone that ..attractive?so-his-type girl?
urrrrgh!
could i call it love?

breath the air

Pfiuh. Yeah i've got a lil bit stressed out around this months. Why? IGCSE is about to facing my face fella,duh? I'm kinda freaking out here ha!

Since my sist moved out (not permanently actually) to bandung, i've been alone at jakarta. And it feels sucks meen! I hate to be alone. Especially when I'm in this king of situation.

Now, i miss bandung a lot! I miss my friends, my home, my sist my parents . Like, last friday (030409) i asked my self to go to bandung.and at the last lesson of the day, i can't hold the feeling to see my freakingly-missable bandung, so ma'an ratna almost shout at my name around 3 times, as i remember, bacause i can't focus my head to the topic and when i arrived at bandung (finally) i could barely breath(lebay).i feel terribly happy!! And the next day i met my friends and today i was a fishermen! Haha yeah we went fishing at ciparay.my dad has friend there who have their own fishing pool.cool huh. (I wonder if i have one and put all the deadliest water-things there). Me and my dad weren't a good fisher at all! Haha and there's this fish, a GIANT (believe me , its MASSIVE) fish. I don't know what is it called in english.Yah klo di indonesia in tuh ikan lele.is so big so you can compare it with my hand (which is big). My mom want that fish so bad .and there's this man who jumped to the pool and he did dive ! Yuks huh?. FYI, fadhil and luthfi also came to this fishing party shoud i say. Its totally fun!! But i hope my bro came along.:''( i miss him

Good news! He'll come ti jakarta this june! You have no idea how i miss him. Could barely wait!

So here i am at the car.making my way to jakarta.i am sad. Actually my mom offered me to be absent tomorrow.but I'm afraid to be absent again bcause of igcse:)

So.hope tomorrow morning will be raining:))

And i love to breath the air now:)

demonstration of boredom

Since i have nothing to do now,Here's a thing to talk about today:)

A lot of questions appears in my mind.and sometimes the most disturbing question is "why can't you be more like 'em,ira?". Believe it or not, I ask that question to my self many many times. Maybe some people see me as a person who really love her self and think that I never compare my self with other when actually I do. Well,I am human,duh?

I don't like to be compared with someone,actually.but strange, I compared me my self. I,sometimes,see myself as a person who is strong,happy,wonder womanlike.but when I see those person who is better than me (no hurt feeling) I feel like an idiot who try to stand out of the crowd.you know how's that feel ,don't you.

A lot of time I try to strengthen my self by thinking "they have what you don't have.but you HAVE what they DON'T have!face it girl!". Logically its true huh? :)

I love to dressed based on my mood.so sometimes I wear short dress and it goes with my tidy short bob-styled hair which is girly and another time I wear shorts with boys shirts and it goes with a mess hair. which is a Lil bit boyish.

So here, one day I go to the mall with my sister. And I see one girl (or more).they look so beautiful 'til I feel I'm so ugly. They have long hair and a lil bit curly ( I beg you,God to give me that hair!) And their body ,yeah you know, the opposite of mine. I cry inside and ask the question to my self "why cant you be like 'em ira?" . i hate those time.

I finally realized that everybody have their own unique way for their life.so do i. and everyone,no exception, have their own lack and excess. so why should i be jealous of their appearance? just be your self.bcause maybe ,by your unique way to live your self, you could be popular, or even better?

so.got my point?

i do

i just love you! i just adore you! i just like you! A LOT!

gw lagi UTS dong. yeah i HATE exams.especially when i have to do the core part.luckily,today i had my first day of mid term test which was started with indonesian exam.i dont know why but i felt like i have to say thanks a lot to miss maria (my JHS teacher who was teaching me indonesian).a lot of things that she teach me at the past made me easier here at the present. i dont mean to be arrogant or something, but i didnt really need a lot of time to do the exam today.and surprisingly,i could do my physics! well not all,but not bad at all.hope i could get a good score there.


well. gotta learn some papers here.

btw.im taken now.hahahaha gotcha

peace out
ira

Tadaaa!

whoooaa.gw bahkan hampir lupa klo gw punya blog.hahaha so sorry.i've got so stressful this few weeks.IGCSE is coming to town.whoop whoop.i still cant believe it.ohmygod!im so not ready for this.esp for that lesson called PHYSICS thanks for isaac newton,and his friends bla bla bla.at the first time.me abi gisya erin giu were going to take physics at oct-nov period but when mr sapto (the coolest teacher on the planet *PLEASE*) explained about it.we changed our mind. so this semester,for me,will be the most pathetic semester for me (IGCSE duh?).

besides that.i kinda enjoy my time at school now.ignore the lessons things.i mean we laugh more,we play more,we fight more *?* and we love each other more.haha and about the lessons!gee!i mess it up.esp in chemistry.urrg dont wanna talk about school anymore.reminds me of IGCSE

well i was searching for my old photos 2 weeks ago. and i realized how i miss my past times. when i didnt even think about how people think about me,hows my dress look like,how fat was i,and didnt scream 'shit!' when i forgot to wear a lipgloss.HAHAHA :') dont you ever think how complicated our life now? we worry when we run out of clothes to wear bcause we dont want to wear the same clothes.we worry when we have our bad hair day bcause we afraid no one will be interested at us.and we worry if we dont have a date in saturday night because our friends will think that we are a nerd.funny huh?


























and i love to take a warm-water shower nowadays!



dear dear dear,
ira.

i got homework!

Well. okay. thanks for the homework,thia (you could hit her blog on the link beside).
thia gave me a homework.
what i have to do is answer the question that she gave me with pictures from google. grace!.

here we go.

The age of my next birthday:

i badly cant wait for my next bday!which means 1 year left to my sweet 17.=))

A place I'd like to travel:India! adores it!

A Fav Place:



a warm room. i could spend a day there. and it'll be better with a nice kitchen plus the food and novels and tv!

Fave food:

home made food! nyum nyum! (does this photo look like one? )

Fave thing (for now):

Me! and it'll last forever. *zz apa sih gw*


Fave Color:

i love all colours! is that answering the Q?

Place of Birth:Pangkal pinang! cuma numpang lahir doang. haha

City I ever lived in:Jakarta? -.-

A nickname I had:Dugong. do i look like one? and should i be proud or what? haha

College major:
street art @ melbourne!

Name of my love:

Darren kagasoff! uurrr.

Bad habit:

i sleep a lot and recognize my self as a koala which transform to human. haha!

Hobby:
i laugh like i breath. hahaha!

Wishlist!
LV's tribute to stephen sprouse .

mini cooper!




oxford shoes!

yeah finally i finished my homework!

so i'll giv e this homework to : sasa, tami, mutia and kak jazman.