Saturday, April 25, 2009

Satu Hal

Kenapa manusia sekarang mendambakan kesempurnaan?
Saya tidak munafik
Saya sendiri ingin menjadi sempurna
Siapa yang tidak?
Tapi manusia sekarang menjadi lebih licik,
Hanya untuk sepotong kata
Kesempurnaan
Apakah pantas?

Well, semua orang tau tidak ada yang bisa sempurna
Mendekati pun tidak akan ada
Namun mengapa pengorbanan demi kesempurnaan itu terus dilanjutkan?
Aneh...

Bagi saya, kesempurnaan itu hanya untuk sesuatu yang tidak nyata
Yang even impossible untuk diwujudkan
Lihat saja manusia terpopuler dijagat raya ini
Saya yakin apa yang kita lihat itu bukan dia yang sesungguhnya
Mereka masih menangis juga bukan?

Satu hal yang pasti
Dunia ini sempurna untuk hidup
Namun isinya tidak akan pernah sempurna
So, don't try to be perfect
Perfection is ridiculous

*entah kenapa otak gw lagi stuck dengan perfection.ck*

Peace out

Monday, April 20, 2009

"why we are so unbeliavable fucked up?"

i got that quote from radityadika's blog.well i love the words. ' why we are so unbeliavable fucked up'.

lets move on

today i just wanna wishing good luck to all of my fellas out there . well who now facing the UAN and soon , IGCSE. i know i know. i've written a lot of IGCSE words here. but what could i do. its driving me nuts here. -.-'

to ENXAIN,for the ESL Oral Test tomorrow, i know we could do this. all we have to do is believin your self, yegaa? (padahal gw sndiri masi keringet dingin).yang bikin ribet sih rules nya. no fillers, no repetition, no laughing.-.- after this. we'll "only" facing the last storm, the real IGCSE. after that we'll have fun huh?


------------------(could we just forget about it?)------------------------------------------------


so i found this gold oxford shoes at plaza senayan and in just one snap, i fall in love with that shoes (weirdo). i even found my self daydream about it.unfortunately my mother was in a bad mood. so she didnt let me bought it :''(

my old-bad-habit comes back. i love to graffiti-ing later this day.

here're some










































































yeah. its a mess huh? i love to draw nowadays. maybe because i could easily express my feelings.when i do blog walking, i see other people draw. and i feel that im suck at art. but as i said in my previous post, art will always be good right.the "born to shop" is such a disaster. look at the yellow. haha and the one next to it is also a mess. yeah i did a lot of mess here.but i love it! the "lucky..." you know this words huh? its from jmraz.ft.coco "lucky". this song has it owns
after all.memory for me. don't have to explain it any further.i wrote it down at my agenda which now transform into my drawing book=)the scary oict , is actually the result of my face scanned. it included my neilgaiman book, and my fish-eye,and mybb=)

and the " when you just need someone". i draw it when im so upset with one person. and when i feel so freakingly lonely, i put a stress on the "need". i don't know why.

after all. i draw all of these graffiti on my own. its original. no copying . =) im i know im not a good drawer but all of this things are more than enough for me.

and one more thing,
im so in love with one boy.
not handsome,not clever, but there's one thing that attracted me. aaaah! you!


hit some hot choco sure do me good now
sincerely,
Al:)

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

yeah.i am

I'm not okay. I'm in pain :'(

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

could i?

i just couldn't fight this feeling.
while you like someone so much
too much until you couldn't fight his appearance in you head
what will you do?
could i call it love?
cause what i know,love is much bigger than this
but he keeps appeared in my head
everyday!
no lie.
sometimes,it does hurt
the fact that he's far away
not so far away
but it IS far (see i dont even understand what i wrote here)
and the fact that
he's too good for me and
there's no way he will see me as someone that ..attractive?so-his-type girl?
urrrrgh!
could i call it love?

Sunday, April 5, 2009

breath the air

Pfiuh. Yeah i've got a lil bit stressed out around this months. Why? IGCSE is about to facing my face fella,duh? I'm kinda freaking out here ha!

Since my sist moved out (not permanently actually) to bandung, i've been alone at jakarta. And it feels sucks meen! I hate to be alone. Especially when I'm in this king of situation.

Now, i miss bandung a lot! I miss my friends, my home, my sist my parents . Like, last friday (030409) i asked my self to go to bandung.and at the last lesson of the day, i can't hold the feeling to see my freakingly-missable bandung, so ma'an ratna almost shout at my name around 3 times, as i remember, bacause i can't focus my head to the topic and when i arrived at bandung (finally) i could barely breath(lebay).i feel terribly happy!! And the next day i met my friends and today i was a fishermen! Haha yeah we went fishing at ciparay.my dad has friend there who have their own fishing pool.cool huh. (I wonder if i have one and put all the deadliest water-things there). Me and my dad weren't a good fisher at all! Haha and there's this fish, a GIANT (believe me , its MASSIVE) fish. I don't know what is it called in english.Yah klo di indonesia in tuh ikan lele.is so big so you can compare it with my hand (which is big). My mom want that fish so bad .and there's this man who jumped to the pool and he did dive ! Yuks huh?. FYI, fadhil and luthfi also came to this fishing party shoud i say. Its totally fun!! But i hope my bro came along.:''( i miss him

Good news! He'll come ti jakarta this june! You have no idea how i miss him. Could barely wait!

So here i am at the car.making my way to jakarta.i am sad. Actually my mom offered me to be absent tomorrow.but I'm afraid to be absent again bcause of igcse:)

So.hope tomorrow morning will be raining:))

And i love to breath the air now:)