im single and freakingly happy!

jadi hari ini hari minggu. hell yeah mamen! bsk udh senen aja. so, from now on should i love sunday or what?

di postingan kali ini gw pgn menyebut kan list list smua hal yang blkgn ini lagi ada dipikiran gw.
so,
I, RECENTLY...:

1. in love with a boy, he actually freakin me out for being so cute. tapi yah sprtinya dia udh punya gbtn lain. ya udh lah ya. FYI, dia bukan anak jupan=)
2. in love with ANGELS AND DEMONS. sebenernya gw udh baca bukunya tuh udh lamaaa banget. 2/3 taun yang lalu gituh. makanya gw udh lupa crtnya.but afterall, banyak crt yg dipotong yah? kok kayanya kurang gimanaaa gitu dibandingin novelnya.
3. freak about The Beatles. pertama sih gara gara tami niii nularin ke gw -.- trs entah knp gw jadi dikelilingi oleh orang orang yang suka the beatles. masa kata bang ukan selera gw makin aneh sih gara2 suka sama The Beatles. hemm
4. feel so lonely late this days. i dont know why. bahkan di hape gw pun skrg jadi jarang ada sms yang masuk. yeah guys, i feel like a new nerd in town right now. and it sucks
5. getting thinner. HUAHAHAHAHAHA. becanda abis gw. tapi entah knp gw merasa seperti itu. bagi kalian yang telah melihat saya cuma ga merasakan perubahan dr size badan gw, harap beritahu. apadah gwe.
6. ga pake bb lagi!! hell yeah akhirnya. gw merasakan kerugian dalam memakai blackberry. pertama, gw jadi ga konsen belajar kalo di sklh, slalu ada notifications dr fb, ato email. kedua, pulsanya kerasa banget dah. ketiga, ngerasa gahul gwee.
7. found that facebook and another social site are no longer fun. ngeboseniiin gitu gitu doang. expect something more and different
   
8. really miss my baby bro outhere. aaah bang ukan kapan sih lo balik. njrit gw kangen banget mamen!
9. try to walk through my day as a new me, a nerd i mean. yeah whatsoever about that.

yah itu lah yang sdg ada di pikiran gw.
oh yeah men.
gw emg lagi ngerasa berantakan banget belakangan ini.
apakah ini dampak dari IGCSE?
mungkin
memang
100% sangaaat mungkin

udh ah
mau sarapan dlu
dadah

peace out
AL

:'(

YEAH! I AM SAD! I FEEL UPSET! SO DONT YOU CARE?!

IGCSE! again

iya dah, bsk gw udah IGCSE aja gituh. jadi hari ini gw nyampe di jakarta jam 11.jam 12 ke rumah mutia.jmput dia.trs ke sklh. tutor fisika. yeah akhirnya gw merasakan benefit dari tutor fisika -.- abis itu jenguk gitasya-beibi-hani-bani-bala-bala yang lagii terperangkap di siloam gr2 db. GWS YA GISYA SAYAAAANG=). yeah abis jenguk kita ngebucks (cieh gayanya) di lobby siloam.aga kurang ngajar memang ngebucks dirumahsakit.

abis itu nyampe rumah jam 6.mandi, ganti baju, solat terus les ampe jam stengah 9. STRES GWEEEE! hemm. bsk fisika. paper 6. alternative to practical. emg sih cuma perlu mindain data.cuma bahasanya itu looooh. bisa ga sih di translate dulu ke bahasa indo klo ga batak gituh.

gw lagi bner2 ga mood buat bljr skrg, kpl gw puyeng, ga napsu makan dr tadi pagi alhasil gw ga makan hr ini (ngemil sih ho oh), dan stress pula,.gimana pelajaran mau masuk coba. hemm..

iya.blkgn ini gw lagi ada masalah sama bb gw. jadi males makenya. ribet mamen.-.-

last weekend at bandung was sooooo much fun. we have our sat-night at pvj. rame rame.ada kak ichang, bang fahmi, ade,mba maya,kak alfi, kak munif&istri. entah knp gw sng bgt.mungkin gr2 itu hari trkhir gw untuk bersenang2 sblm IGCSE.hemm. banyak foto2 lucu dan foto2 yang gw suka banget,.cuma kayanya gw ga bisa upload skrg,. ditunggu yah

lanjuuut

so, hr minggu kmrn gw jalan sama kak ichang, bang fahmi dan bang hendra. makan mie kocok terajib yang pernah gw makan, bis itu karokean ahoy di pvj abis itu ngopi bntr. asik . karokeannya gila gilaan. gw nyanyiin boom boom pownya BEP. huaa i adore that song. trus gw nyanyi twist and shout nya the beatles.begonya ga ada yang tau lagu itu -.-

hemm

yah sekian dlu deh
gw lagi bingung mau ngapain
mungkin baca buku fisika

gr8t day guys!
AL

ga tau mau dikasi judul apa

So, here i am.making my way to bandung. Iye gw tau slasa udh IGCSE kok gw ke bndung. Yah dr pd gw stress dirumah ngerjain past papers.mnding gw ke bdg bukan?

Yah jadi skrg gw lagi dimobil. Diluar ujan. Dan macet.ditambah lagu you're beautiful yg mengalun dr radio. Hemm. Somehow this situation could change my mood. I was at the gOod mood.but now, i feel somekind of .... Something.

Udh ah.jadi melow abis.
Yak jadi gw tadi abis tutor math.sama ma'am maria. Ngerjain prediction Qs. Nothing special.

Hemmmm...

What'll you do if you have a crush on someone but this guy seems to be a flirt-er ? I feel like he's what i've been searching for. Kriik bahasanya

Bingung mau nggmg apa lg

Yah

Gw mncoba buat nikmatin prjalanan ini.

Sambil dgrin lagu here,there,everywherenya the beatles. Reminds me of bandung:)

Have a great w'end y'all

Muah
AL•v•

help! i need somebody!

gw kesepian belakangan ini. yeah kesepian abis mamen. mama papa kak icha di bandung. bang ukan di melbourne . how could this be any worse? -.-
yeah like i said before. ini teh contrast pisan sama yang ke pangandaran kemaren.
i cried yesterday, i mean a lot.
i just need somebody nowadays.
these things-the IGCSE, being so alone, and the fact that i always compare my self to other- really make me feel bad!

paling males klo nympe rumah dr sklh trus naik ke kamar , diem, and the only thing i could hear is nothing!

ada ga enk ama enknya sih sndirian dirumah

enknya ya bebas lo mau ngapain aja silahkan, klo bljr mah tng tng aja.

ga enknya ya itu tadi. sepi banget.dan klo ga ada kerjaan ga tau mau ngapain. paling main internet ato ga maen.

hemmm
bingung mau nulis apa..
well then
see ya!
AL

p.s sblm tutor bio tadi sore gw makan bakso, cabenya 4 sendok penuh,. hasilnya? angelina jolie kalah =p

ohmaigat!senen lagi. sekolah lagi

heyyyhooooooooo. akhirnya gw kembali lagi didpn komputer. dan dikarenakan gw udh mumet sama bahasa inggris disklh marilah kita kmbali ke bahasa indonesia yang baik dan benar menurut ejaannya-__-

Jadi, hari ini sekolah. yeah. men. gw aja ga percaya klo hr itu udah senen aja. senen=upacara=rambut lepek=keringetan="anjrit ni pidato panjang abis". pas dirumah gw udh berdoa. Tuhan, tolong dong ujan tiba tiba. sekali iniiiii aja. cuma ternyata Yang Diatas tidak setuju dengan permohonan bego gw itu. ngiiiik.

dan mumpung gw lagi ga ada kerjaan, gw pgn cerita tentang "one of the best days i've ever had in my liiiiiiiiiiife" atau diindonesiain "salah satu hari terbaik dihidup gw".

yeah.

jadi minggu lalu, tepatnya hari senen, nyokap gw ke jakarta sama gw (bolos dong) dr bandung soalnya hari minggunya kemaleman pulang dari acara simpedes (ada samsons! krik krik). nyampe di jakarta kita langsung ke hotel athlete century soalnya nyokap gw dan temen temennya nginep disitu gara2 ada turnamen bowling bersama di plaza senayan. dalam pikiran gw, GAYA YE IBU IBU SKRG MAEN BOWLING. nyokap gw sih cuma jadi penyemangat -.-
trus abis dr century kita ke ps. makan dan nmnin latian bowling. ada kali tuh stengah abad latiannya. lama b3udH. saking lamanya gw ditawarin maen dan dilatih sama ada lah itu platih dari bandung namanya mas yogi.

maen 5 game

nilai tertinggi 99

nilai terendah 25

mampus bego abis

biasanya gw maen bowling gw sisa lempar doang. dan gw baru tau ternyata bowling ada pemanasannya juga grooook

yeah kita skip ampe hari slasa malem

jadi slasa malem nyokap nelpon, nyuruh gw nginep di century sambil bawa seragam buat bsk. ajib yekan gw ke sekolah dari hotel. kesannya gimanaaaa gitu. mungkin dikira mas mas hotelnya gw ngungsi gara2 rumah gw kebanjiran-.-nyokap bilang sih gara2 ga ada temen tidur. pas gw disana, tidurnya ber 4 dong sama tmn2 nyokap. sama aja yekan krik.pagi2 gw ke sekolah pake sragam (yaiyalah).trus malemnya gw disuru nginep lagi. bedanya ini bareng sama bu turi (tukang urut langganan mama , the best mamen) . sama kaya kmrn , paginya gw kesekolah lagi (kamis).

rencananya kan jumat bolos tuh buat pre wedd kaka gw ( meen udh pre wedd aja dia), nah kamis sore tuh gw ktmuan ama nyokap ama bu turi, langsung ke bandung. nyampe bandung jam stengah 9an. gw kira ke pangandarannya (lokasi kak icha prewedd) bsk pagi, ternyata langsung dong. mau mati ga. ga sih

brgkt jam stengah 10 nyampe jam 2 pagi. jalannan sepi, om dadang nyetir udh kaya pembalap ep-1 (f1 maksudnya). nyampe sana gw satu kamar sama tnte beti dan bu turi , connecting door sama kak icha sama mba maya.

disinilah the best days of my life gw berawal. gw bingung sih mau ngejelasinnya. soalnya klo gw jlsin ga bakal seru. im a bad story-teller to be honest;p

bsknya liat kak icha sama bang fahmi foto pre wedd di pinggri pantai megang balon warna warni. gw bawa SLR tuh. pengen foto2 juga gw. tapi dengan kebegoan gw. gw ga bawa memory cardnya, ketinggalan di card reader. beli tuh. dapet. pas dinyalain............ batrenya abis...





...krik...


huff. sabar gela gw.

yeah gw liat fotonya. njrit lucu abis! jadi ada tim forografernya gitu, ada om munif, kak alfi, dan 3 org lainnya. gw ngiler ama kameranya -.-akhirnya gw gunain fish eye gw (amin gw bawa).
abis dr pantai, makan siang trus ke pasir putih . pake prahu. aaah gw suka ama pantainya. asik banget. banyak monyetnya, dan ibu ibu berjilbab tmn mama berhasil dikerjain ama monyet monyet itu.hahahahahahahahahahahahaha ehem jahat pisan teh si ira. smpt ngerendem kaki (dan hampir ngerendem bb+ipod gw juga) di pantai sama mba maya.ngobrol ngobrol ngalor ngidul.

bsknya foto di tmpt kaya pemancingan tradisional gitu. klo diliat sih jelek buat foto, cuman mamen, gw salut sama mas munif, fotonya kuereeeeeen b3udH. kak icha pake baju bridal, she looked freakingly beautiful!

abis itu kita makan siang dkt pantai batu karas (kalo ga salah , i forget the line of the story) nah di restorannya itu abis makan kita naik speed boat, sama papa mama om mbuy, yg lainnya naik getek hahaha. gw ngeliat papa ktawa ama senyum terus tuh rasanya SENENG BANGET!

abis itu kita ke batu karasnya. kita berenaaaang, di pantai. aaaaakhrnyaaaaaa. itu yang nyebur tuh gw,kaka icha, mama, papa, om mbuy, tante beti, om ade, om munif, sama kak alfi. nyettt itu asik banget, yang namanya IGCSE itu ilang dr pikiran gw. abis itu bilas di toilet restoran .trus abis mandi kata mama masa ada uler di luar tadi. gila klo gw ngeliat gw bisa pingsan bediri kali (since i have my freak phobia on that things!). trus balik ke hotel.

malemnya kita api unggun-an di pinggir pantai, aaaaah i love this part, bintangnya banyak bangeeeeeeeeeeeeet + ada pnyanyi yg kaya dijimbaran gitu yang pake kecrek kecrek sama gitar sama gendang + api unggun + dinner + manusia manusia yang saya cintai .romantis paraaaaah. trus disini, ada frame yang foto bareng2. di foto itu tangan gw segede monas-.-

bsknya kita foto2 bareng2 lagi. mama papa kak icha bang fahmi bang hendra om mbuy tante beti sama om iyen. di pantai gitu ada karangnya (dr htel ke pantai gw naik pespa dong) lucuuuuu, trus gw foto brdua sama kak icha, which we posed like we're in a photo box. and there's these photo, jadi crtnya itu prewedd papa mama, gw kak icha sama bang fahminya tuh yang bingung gitu, hhhhaa

unfortunately, bang ukan ga ikut. aaaaaaaaaah knp sih lo harus kuliah di melbourne nan jauh ituuuu!

trus abis itu, ini hari minggu ya, which is hari trkhir, kita siap2 . jalan ke bandung. trus makan siang di banjar, trus take the last picts di sawah2 gituh, percaya ga percaya, dengan monyetnyam GW NGELIAT ULER AJA GITUH LAGI NGELIAK LIUK MENJIJIKAN DI SUNGAI WARNA ITEM,KECIL NYEBELIN!!!

trus kita ke sawah satunya lagi, terjal, dan gw jatoh aja gituh, untungnya ga kelumpur. trs abis itu pulang deh.

nyampe bandung gw siap2 trus langsung ke jakarta sama bang fahmi sama om wawan.

aaaah nyampe rumah, gw tiduran, dan ga percaya klo gw udh di jakarta. gw pgn nangis. sepiiii. kontras banget sama 3 hari yang rame asik banget itu. kapan ya bisa gituh lagi? :'''''''''''(

btw, doain buat IGCSE gw ya. that thing really freakin me out, gw lagi males malesnya, sdgkan ulangannya minggu dpn. ajib.

aaah im waiting for a message!!!!!!! :))))))

peace out
AL~

Satu Hal

Kenapa manusia sekarang mendambakan kesempurnaan?
Saya tidak munafik
Saya sendiri ingin menjadi sempurna
Siapa yang tidak?
Tapi manusia sekarang menjadi lebih licik,
Hanya untuk sepotong kata
Kesempurnaan
Apakah pantas?

Well, semua orang tau tidak ada yang bisa sempurna
Mendekati pun tidak akan ada
Namun mengapa pengorbanan demi kesempurnaan itu terus dilanjutkan?
Aneh...

Bagi saya, kesempurnaan itu hanya untuk sesuatu yang tidak nyata
Yang even impossible untuk diwujudkan
Lihat saja manusia terpopuler dijagat raya ini
Saya yakin apa yang kita lihat itu bukan dia yang sesungguhnya
Mereka masih menangis juga bukan?

Satu hal yang pasti
Dunia ini sempurna untuk hidup
Namun isinya tidak akan pernah sempurna
So, don't try to be perfect
Perfection is ridiculous

*entah kenapa otak gw lagi stuck dengan perfection.ck*

Peace out

"why we are so unbeliavable fucked up?"

i got that quote from radityadika's blog.well i love the words. ' why we are so unbeliavable fucked up'.

lets move on

today i just wanna wishing good luck to all of my fellas out there . well who now facing the UAN and soon , IGCSE. i know i know. i've written a lot of IGCSE words here. but what could i do. its driving me nuts here. -.-'

to ENXAIN,for the ESL Oral Test tomorrow, i know we could do this. all we have to do is believin your self, yegaa? (padahal gw sndiri masi keringet dingin).yang bikin ribet sih rules nya. no fillers, no repetition, no laughing.-.- after this. we'll "only" facing the last storm, the real IGCSE. after that we'll have fun huh?


------------------(could we just forget about it?)------------------------------------------------


so i found this gold oxford shoes at plaza senayan and in just one snap, i fall in love with that shoes (weirdo). i even found my self daydream about it.unfortunately my mother was in a bad mood. so she didnt let me bought it :''(

my old-bad-habit comes back. i love to graffiti-ing later this day.

here're some










































































yeah. its a mess huh? i love to draw nowadays. maybe because i could easily express my feelings.when i do blog walking, i see other people draw. and i feel that im suck at art. but as i said in my previous post, art will always be good right.the "born to shop" is such a disaster. look at the yellow. haha and the one next to it is also a mess. yeah i did a lot of mess here.but i love it! the "lucky..." you know this words huh? its from jmraz.ft.coco "lucky". this song has it owns
after all.memory for me. don't have to explain it any further.i wrote it down at my agenda which now transform into my drawing book=)the scary oict , is actually the result of my face scanned. it included my neilgaiman book, and my fish-eye,and mybb=)

and the " when you just need someone". i draw it when im so upset with one person. and when i feel so freakingly lonely, i put a stress on the "need". i don't know why.

after all. i draw all of these graffiti on my own. its original. no copying . =) im i know im not a good drawer but all of this things are more than enough for me.

and one more thing,
im so in love with one boy.
not handsome,not clever, but there's one thing that attracted me. aaaah! you!


hit some hot choco sure do me good now
sincerely,
Al:)

yeah.i am

I'm not okay. I'm in pain :'(

could i?

i just couldn't fight this feeling.
while you like someone so much
too much until you couldn't fight his appearance in you head
what will you do?
could i call it love?
cause what i know,love is much bigger than this
but he keeps appeared in my head
everyday!
no lie.
sometimes,it does hurt
the fact that he's far away
not so far away
but it IS far (see i dont even understand what i wrote here)
and the fact that
he's too good for me and
there's no way he will see me as someone that ..attractive?so-his-type girl?
urrrrgh!
could i call it love?

breath the air

Pfiuh. Yeah i've got a lil bit stressed out around this months. Why? IGCSE is about to facing my face fella,duh? I'm kinda freaking out here ha!

Since my sist moved out (not permanently actually) to bandung, i've been alone at jakarta. And it feels sucks meen! I hate to be alone. Especially when I'm in this king of situation.

Now, i miss bandung a lot! I miss my friends, my home, my sist my parents . Like, last friday (030409) i asked my self to go to bandung.and at the last lesson of the day, i can't hold the feeling to see my freakingly-missable bandung, so ma'an ratna almost shout at my name around 3 times, as i remember, bacause i can't focus my head to the topic and when i arrived at bandung (finally) i could barely breath(lebay).i feel terribly happy!! And the next day i met my friends and today i was a fishermen! Haha yeah we went fishing at ciparay.my dad has friend there who have their own fishing pool.cool huh. (I wonder if i have one and put all the deadliest water-things there). Me and my dad weren't a good fisher at all! Haha and there's this fish, a GIANT (believe me , its MASSIVE) fish. I don't know what is it called in english.Yah klo di indonesia in tuh ikan lele.is so big so you can compare it with my hand (which is big). My mom want that fish so bad .and there's this man who jumped to the pool and he did dive ! Yuks huh?. FYI, fadhil and luthfi also came to this fishing party shoud i say. Its totally fun!! But i hope my bro came along.:''( i miss him

Good news! He'll come ti jakarta this june! You have no idea how i miss him. Could barely wait!

So here i am at the car.making my way to jakarta.i am sad. Actually my mom offered me to be absent tomorrow.but I'm afraid to be absent again bcause of igcse:)

So.hope tomorrow morning will be raining:))

And i love to breath the air now:)

demonstration of boredom

Since i have nothing to do now,Here's a thing to talk about today:)

A lot of questions appears in my mind.and sometimes the most disturbing question is "why can't you be more like 'em,ira?". Believe it or not, I ask that question to my self many many times. Maybe some people see me as a person who really love her self and think that I never compare my self with other when actually I do. Well,I am human,duh?

I don't like to be compared with someone,actually.but strange, I compared me my self. I,sometimes,see myself as a person who is strong,happy,wonder womanlike.but when I see those person who is better than me (no hurt feeling) I feel like an idiot who try to stand out of the crowd.you know how's that feel ,don't you.

A lot of time I try to strengthen my self by thinking "they have what you don't have.but you HAVE what they DON'T have!face it girl!". Logically its true huh? :)

I love to dressed based on my mood.so sometimes I wear short dress and it goes with my tidy short bob-styled hair which is girly and another time I wear shorts with boys shirts and it goes with a mess hair. which is a Lil bit boyish.

So here, one day I go to the mall with my sister. And I see one girl (or more).they look so beautiful 'til I feel I'm so ugly. They have long hair and a lil bit curly ( I beg you,God to give me that hair!) And their body ,yeah you know, the opposite of mine. I cry inside and ask the question to my self "why cant you be like 'em ira?" . i hate those time.

I finally realized that everybody have their own unique way for their life.so do i. and everyone,no exception, have their own lack and excess. so why should i be jealous of their appearance? just be your self.bcause maybe ,by your unique way to live your self, you could be popular, or even better?

so.got my point?

i do

i just love you! i just adore you! i just like you! A LOT!

gw lagi UTS dong. yeah i HATE exams.especially when i have to do the core part.luckily,today i had my first day of mid term test which was started with indonesian exam.i dont know why but i felt like i have to say thanks a lot to miss maria (my JHS teacher who was teaching me indonesian).a lot of things that she teach me at the past made me easier here at the present. i dont mean to be arrogant or something, but i didnt really need a lot of time to do the exam today.and surprisingly,i could do my physics! well not all,but not bad at all.hope i could get a good score there.


well. gotta learn some papers here.

btw.im taken now.hahahaha gotcha

peace out
ira

Tadaaa!

whoooaa.gw bahkan hampir lupa klo gw punya blog.hahaha so sorry.i've got so stressful this few weeks.IGCSE is coming to town.whoop whoop.i still cant believe it.ohmygod!im so not ready for this.esp for that lesson called PHYSICS thanks for isaac newton,and his friends bla bla bla.at the first time.me abi gisya erin giu were going to take physics at oct-nov period but when mr sapto (the coolest teacher on the planet *PLEASE*) explained about it.we changed our mind. so this semester,for me,will be the most pathetic semester for me (IGCSE duh?).

besides that.i kinda enjoy my time at school now.ignore the lessons things.i mean we laugh more,we play more,we fight more *?* and we love each other more.haha and about the lessons!gee!i mess it up.esp in chemistry.urrg dont wanna talk about school anymore.reminds me of IGCSE

well i was searching for my old photos 2 weeks ago. and i realized how i miss my past times. when i didnt even think about how people think about me,hows my dress look like,how fat was i,and didnt scream 'shit!' when i forgot to wear a lipgloss.HAHAHA :') dont you ever think how complicated our life now? we worry when we run out of clothes to wear bcause we dont want to wear the same clothes.we worry when we have our bad hair day bcause we afraid no one will be interested at us.and we worry if we dont have a date in saturday night because our friends will think that we are a nerd.funny huh?


























and i love to take a warm-water shower nowadays!



dear dear dear,
ira.