"why we are so unbeliavable fucked up?"

i got that quote from radityadika's blog.well i love the words. ' why we are so unbeliavable fucked up'.

lets move on

today i just wanna wishing good luck to all of my fellas out there . well who now facing the UAN and soon , IGCSE. i know i know. i've written a lot of IGCSE words here. but what could i do. its driving me nuts here. -.-'

to ENXAIN,for the ESL Oral Test tomorrow, i know we could do this. all we have to do is believin your self, yegaa? (padahal gw sndiri masi keringet dingin).yang bikin ribet sih rules nya. no fillers, no repetition, no laughing.-.- after this. we'll "only" facing the last storm, the real IGCSE. after that we'll have fun huh?


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so i found this gold oxford shoes at plaza senayan and in just one snap, i fall in love with that shoes (weirdo). i even found my self daydream about it.unfortunately my mother was in a bad mood. so she didnt let me bought it :''(

my old-bad-habit comes back. i love to graffiti-ing later this day.

here're some










































































yeah. its a mess huh? i love to draw nowadays. maybe because i could easily express my feelings.when i do blog walking, i see other people draw. and i feel that im suck at art. but as i said in my previous post, art will always be good right.the "born to shop" is such a disaster. look at the yellow. haha and the one next to it is also a mess. yeah i did a lot of mess here.but i love it! the "lucky..." you know this words huh? its from jmraz.ft.coco "lucky". this song has it owns
after all.memory for me. don't have to explain it any further.i wrote it down at my agenda which now transform into my drawing book=)the scary oict , is actually the result of my face scanned. it included my neilgaiman book, and my fish-eye,and mybb=)

and the " when you just need someone". i draw it when im so upset with one person. and when i feel so freakingly lonely, i put a stress on the "need". i don't know why.

after all. i draw all of these graffiti on my own. its original. no copying . =) im i know im not a good drawer but all of this things are more than enough for me.

and one more thing,
im so in love with one boy.
not handsome,not clever, but there's one thing that attracted me. aaaah! you!


hit some hot choco sure do me good now
sincerely,
Al:)

yeah.i am

I'm not okay. I'm in pain :'(

could i?

i just couldn't fight this feeling.
while you like someone so much
too much until you couldn't fight his appearance in you head
what will you do?
could i call it love?
cause what i know,love is much bigger than this
but he keeps appeared in my head
everyday!
no lie.
sometimes,it does hurt
the fact that he's far away
not so far away
but it IS far (see i dont even understand what i wrote here)
and the fact that
he's too good for me and
there's no way he will see me as someone that ..attractive?so-his-type girl?
urrrrgh!
could i call it love?

breath the air

Pfiuh. Yeah i've got a lil bit stressed out around this months. Why? IGCSE is about to facing my face fella,duh? I'm kinda freaking out here ha!

Since my sist moved out (not permanently actually) to bandung, i've been alone at jakarta. And it feels sucks meen! I hate to be alone. Especially when I'm in this king of situation.

Now, i miss bandung a lot! I miss my friends, my home, my sist my parents . Like, last friday (030409) i asked my self to go to bandung.and at the last lesson of the day, i can't hold the feeling to see my freakingly-missable bandung, so ma'an ratna almost shout at my name around 3 times, as i remember, bacause i can't focus my head to the topic and when i arrived at bandung (finally) i could barely breath(lebay).i feel terribly happy!! And the next day i met my friends and today i was a fishermen! Haha yeah we went fishing at ciparay.my dad has friend there who have their own fishing pool.cool huh. (I wonder if i have one and put all the deadliest water-things there). Me and my dad weren't a good fisher at all! Haha and there's this fish, a GIANT (believe me , its MASSIVE) fish. I don't know what is it called in english.Yah klo di indonesia in tuh ikan lele.is so big so you can compare it with my hand (which is big). My mom want that fish so bad .and there's this man who jumped to the pool and he did dive ! Yuks huh?. FYI, fadhil and luthfi also came to this fishing party shoud i say. Its totally fun!! But i hope my bro came along.:''( i miss him

Good news! He'll come ti jakarta this june! You have no idea how i miss him. Could barely wait!

So here i am at the car.making my way to jakarta.i am sad. Actually my mom offered me to be absent tomorrow.but I'm afraid to be absent again bcause of igcse:)

So.hope tomorrow morning will be raining:))

And i love to breath the air now:)

demonstration of boredom

Since i have nothing to do now,Here's a thing to talk about today:)

A lot of questions appears in my mind.and sometimes the most disturbing question is "why can't you be more like 'em,ira?". Believe it or not, I ask that question to my self many many times. Maybe some people see me as a person who really love her self and think that I never compare my self with other when actually I do. Well,I am human,duh?

I don't like to be compared with someone,actually.but strange, I compared me my self. I,sometimes,see myself as a person who is strong,happy,wonder womanlike.but when I see those person who is better than me (no hurt feeling) I feel like an idiot who try to stand out of the crowd.you know how's that feel ,don't you.

A lot of time I try to strengthen my self by thinking "they have what you don't have.but you HAVE what they DON'T have!face it girl!". Logically its true huh? :)

I love to dressed based on my mood.so sometimes I wear short dress and it goes with my tidy short bob-styled hair which is girly and another time I wear shorts with boys shirts and it goes with a mess hair. which is a Lil bit boyish.

So here, one day I go to the mall with my sister. And I see one girl (or more).they look so beautiful 'til I feel I'm so ugly. They have long hair and a lil bit curly ( I beg you,God to give me that hair!) And their body ,yeah you know, the opposite of mine. I cry inside and ask the question to my self "why cant you be like 'em ira?" . i hate those time.

I finally realized that everybody have their own unique way for their life.so do i. and everyone,no exception, have their own lack and excess. so why should i be jealous of their appearance? just be your self.bcause maybe ,by your unique way to live your self, you could be popular, or even better?

so.got my point?

i do

i just love you! i just adore you! i just like you! A LOT!

gw lagi UTS dong. yeah i HATE exams.especially when i have to do the core part.luckily,today i had my first day of mid term test which was started with indonesian exam.i dont know why but i felt like i have to say thanks a lot to miss maria (my JHS teacher who was teaching me indonesian).a lot of things that she teach me at the past made me easier here at the present. i dont mean to be arrogant or something, but i didnt really need a lot of time to do the exam today.and surprisingly,i could do my physics! well not all,but not bad at all.hope i could get a good score there.


well. gotta learn some papers here.

btw.im taken now.hahahaha gotcha

peace out
ira

Tadaaa!

whoooaa.gw bahkan hampir lupa klo gw punya blog.hahaha so sorry.i've got so stressful this few weeks.IGCSE is coming to town.whoop whoop.i still cant believe it.ohmygod!im so not ready for this.esp for that lesson called PHYSICS thanks for isaac newton,and his friends bla bla bla.at the first time.me abi gisya erin giu were going to take physics at oct-nov period but when mr sapto (the coolest teacher on the planet *PLEASE*) explained about it.we changed our mind. so this semester,for me,will be the most pathetic semester for me (IGCSE duh?).

besides that.i kinda enjoy my time at school now.ignore the lessons things.i mean we laugh more,we play more,we fight more *?* and we love each other more.haha and about the lessons!gee!i mess it up.esp in chemistry.urrg dont wanna talk about school anymore.reminds me of IGCSE

well i was searching for my old photos 2 weeks ago. and i realized how i miss my past times. when i didnt even think about how people think about me,hows my dress look like,how fat was i,and didnt scream 'shit!' when i forgot to wear a lipgloss.HAHAHA :') dont you ever think how complicated our life now? we worry when we run out of clothes to wear bcause we dont want to wear the same clothes.we worry when we have our bad hair day bcause we afraid no one will be interested at us.and we worry if we dont have a date in saturday night because our friends will think that we are a nerd.funny huh?


























and i love to take a warm-water shower nowadays!



dear dear dear,
ira.

i got homework!

Well. okay. thanks for the homework,thia (you could hit her blog on the link beside).
thia gave me a homework.
what i have to do is answer the question that she gave me with pictures from google. grace!.

here we go.

The age of my next birthday:

i badly cant wait for my next bday!which means 1 year left to my sweet 17.=))

A place I'd like to travel:India! adores it!

A Fav Place:



a warm room. i could spend a day there. and it'll be better with a nice kitchen plus the food and novels and tv!

Fave food:

home made food! nyum nyum! (does this photo look like one? )

Fave thing (for now):

Me! and it'll last forever. *zz apa sih gw*


Fave Color:

i love all colours! is that answering the Q?

Place of Birth:Pangkal pinang! cuma numpang lahir doang. haha

City I ever lived in:Jakarta? -.-

A nickname I had:Dugong. do i look like one? and should i be proud or what? haha

College major:
street art @ melbourne!

Name of my love:

Darren kagasoff! uurrr.

Bad habit:

i sleep a lot and recognize my self as a koala which transform to human. haha!

Hobby:
i laugh like i breath. hahaha!

Wishlist!
LV's tribute to stephen sprouse .

mini cooper!




oxford shoes!

yeah finally i finished my homework!

so i'll giv e this homework to : sasa, tami, mutia and kak jazman.

whooaa. udah lama ga ngisi blog. well. blame the holidays and the new rule which really sacrificed us,as student and teenagers.ALL STUDENTS HAVE TO BE AT SCHOOL BEFORE 6.30. the bell rings at 6.30 sharp. The aim for it is to prevent the traffic jam which in the government belief its the school-kids fault. how dare! -.-

well. like we all feel. now we're on our rainy seasons. cold huh? i love the cold but i hate the flood. jee. cant those people who call them self as government fix these things. it really kills time. i really need to go to school earlier so i couldnt get into the traffic jam. what are they doing for the flood? built pile planking over and over. so i could guess in the next 10 years (or less) the pile planking (or,dam) would be about as tall as Monas (or could be worse,eiffel tower). do something more long lasting?

enough for those things, i guess..

well, i just hit my facebook like about 5 minutes ago and found some questions on the "notes". let me try to answer the Qs

Firstly, describe the current you in 5 words:
damn talkative
good sense of humor (i guess)
friendly
a crybaby
moody!

5 things you love about life
the way life making me laugh,cry,scream,so on
my family
my friends
my self
and my world--well, i love all the things about life no exception.


5 famous people you'd love to meet
barrack obama
chanel iman--i love the way she dressed
hayden christensen
neil gaiman
and mary-kate and ashley olsen!



5 movies you love
sound of music (ofcourse)
wall-e
twilight
God must be crazy
devils wear prada
(its so hard for me to choose because for me, movies=art=no good or bad.

5 professions you'd love to have
World-class-standart fashion designer
president of indonesia (haha!)
Teacher
Model at pariis
housewife (would be fun!)

5 best authors
Neil gaiman!
stephenie meyer
dan brown!
angie sage
j.k. rowling (stunning imagination)

5 inspirations
my dad and my mom
my siblings
my friends
my self
my life

5 favorite stuff
phones and iPods
shoes and heels
BAGS!
my pillow
my white car! muah!

5 things you hate
SNAKES!
LIZARDS!
LIAR!
EXAMS!
BAD HAIR DAY!

5 favorite places
Indonesia (no,im serious!)
Swiss
Paris
Los angeles
melbourne
shang hai

5 girls/guys you are currently liking
hayden christensen
robert pattinson (who doesnt?)
nick jonas (why are you so cute?)
daren kagasoff
jackson rathbone


5 favorite people to chat with
erinong
gisya
abi!
bang ukan!
and...so on

5 things you wanna improve more about yourself
wiser than i've ever been.
less consumptive
be a lil bit 'girly' -.-
be more mature ofcourse
and.......blah! have no idea

5 things you would take to a deserted island
a big box of water
summer clothes and sunglasses and hats and swim suit
my beloved friends and families
sunblock and a lot of creamy stuff
aaaand my dogs!

5 places you wanna visit
outer space
south africa
las vegas
paris (men, i never get bored by this city and the shopping thing)
papua (no kidding)


5 things you really want
my own library at my house. the comfortable one of course
Gucci's tattoo heart bag edition!
happiness
blah
blah


5 songs make you cry most
always be my baby-david cook (yeah im a cry baby)
and
broken strings-james morrisson ft. nelly furtado



5 people you love most
mom
dad
my sist
my bro
my self

5 dreams in the future
something better than today
something that'll change my life
something that's stunning and amazing
and so on.


yeah. thats all. i know it really didnt mean a thing,. just to kill the time. ha ha.
im kinda lost an idea for what should i write about.
my days in this new year isnt really that bad. but still not as good as i hope. still have a lot of ,yeah, homework. and got a lil bit problems with my health. but its not a real big deal.

welll. need to wake up early tomorrow. so..
night vrybody. =)

HELLOW SUNSHINE! HELLOW MELBOURNE!

heyh. uda lama ga ne post. well i wrote this post @ malaysian int'l airport . we're hitting a big BOWL of noodle. and it tasted not bad. 

tomorrow i'll arrived at melbourne (26/12/08). and having a plan to meet federick (ehem). well, as a friend okay.

we went to melbourne with malaysian airlines and yeah, the funny things is we have to go to malaysia first than we  go to melbourne. artinya gw bakal lewat atas jakarta pas ke melbourne.  zz

buang buang energi.

what i and my siblings plus my dad and mom do now?

-dad eats his Big noodle

-kak icha reads TEENvogue magazine 

-Mom talks about the airplane out there.

-bang ukan grabs some Burger king. he's a garbage can for sure.

-while me, posts this post. zz

i'll miss all of my friends and someone (ehem) outhere while im on my vacation.tetep gw bakal buka facebook.hehe.

wish you guys have a GREAT HOLIDAY! and muaah!~

with LOTTA love,

ira 

P.S: gw bakal nge post pas pulang dengan foto fotonya.haha. i bring my SLR ofcourse.

saturday fever! (ME TIME.xp)

weekend.yeah here we go again.these whole week was such a great week for me. know why? cause nothing a lot to do at school. yeah.maybe just some remedials and then, when u've finished the remedials, u're free to go home.Like yesterday,which i mean friday and thursday, i went home at 11. can u do that at DH? haha.yeah.no.

mom ,dan and my bro had just come back from spore. and, yeah, they brought me some things.2 garfield's comics and one bookmark. just in time i need a bookmark for my breaking dawn novel. oh yeah. kak icha starts to read nem moon now. and she reads the english v,one. yeah. what a good news.haha.

im out of words now.

lets talk about me!!yay. (i dont know why i really love my self.*oke emank narsis*)

i was born at pangkalpinang , 14th of october 1993 (which has known by the international day of EATING. zz -.-) . im 100% having bataknese blood in my blood vessel. but A LOT of people recognize me as chinese or sundanese or even javanese. yeah. its because i dont have that 'bataknese' line at my face. im a moslem (yeah at this part, a lot of people recognize me as christian or a catholic). im the last in series at my family. my daddy spoils me a lot (im being honest,okay). sometimes i bring joy to my family but sometimes im a disaster.
im soooo indiscreet. thats why my family rarely believin some electronic things to me (even it will come to me too,at the final)

i heart all of things that are colourful and unique. i have my phobia on SNAKES (i ever thrown my biology book away because it has snakes picts on it), lizard, something slimy and their friends. i adores edward cullen (like another girls do) not robert pattinson,jasper cullen , hayden kristensen, and johny depp . for me they're so DAMN HOT!

i have a great family of my own. so supportive dad and mom, really entertaining siblings. i live separately with my mom and dad. they live at bandung . they usually have their weekand at jakarta.but if they're so busy.its my time to go there. my brother live at melbourne . and my sister live here,at jakarta, with me.

i study at 78 int'l shs now. have my name writen as ALMIRA TEMANTA GINTING SUKA at the absent paper as the number 3 student after adamas and ilham. i have a lot of great friends there. they're so making me laughing every day. i joined volleyball club and also have a lot of great seniors and friends there.

i was study at Dian Harapan Junior high. near my house. had a lot of amazing friends also there. had great scores ( yeah i do have bad scores now :'( ) . i really miss my JHS friends. but i know now they're having more amazing friends ,like i do now.

i love coffee (really addictive), novels, comics, cartoons (im still a kid,okay), fashion, make up, photography, math, chocolate, rock, pop, metals, blog, facebook, friendster,dvds, ipod,mac,and lot more.

i sleep a lot. so now. its time for me to have my night nap. xp

night everybody.
great w'end.

soooooo in LOVE.

I'VE WATCHED TWILIGHT!!!! wasnt that a good news? no?! too bad.! because it's the best movie i've ever watched! meeeen,. Esp. EDWARD CULLEN.! he's so BADLY HOT! i thought the movie wont be as good as the novel. but i got it all WRONG. the movie was so stunning,and WOOOOW! i couldnt stopped my self to scream ' anjrit,abiiii.edwardnya ganteng bangeeet.duuuuuh.parah parah ganteng gilaaaa'. *yeah.nora*. surprisingly abi did the same thing. i thought all she gonna say was 'yeah i know' but she screamed 'iraaaa.ganteng bangeeeet.paraaaah'.yeah. me = abi = in love with EDWARD CULLEN.

so lucky kristen stewart . she kissed the MOST WANTED MAN ON EARTH NOW, she hugged him, she almost had all of her time of the movie take with him. meeenn. if i were her, i'll reaaaaallly begging stephenie meyer to make the new moon's film ASAP! yeah. you know why.

What i like most from this movie is the director of the movie really made this movie like what i was thinking when i read the book. Alice, jacob black, the prom, the school canteen, bella's truck, the beach,and friends. the movie made me fallin love with EDWARD CULLEN. his gorgeous and pale face, his sharp eyes (these both made edward looked so VAMPIRE) his WOW-lookin and fashion-taste and the way he said every single words to bella was really melting my heart. dude, if EDWARD and THE CULLENS really exist. they will be the most famous family in the whole world (and the other planets).

im so out of words now. the movie's REALLY GOOD. no lies. really.
cant wait for new moon.
and cant wait to continue reading breaking dawn.

btw, wont write another posts for about 4 days. im going to go to bandung tomorrow. mom had her operation yesterday, and i DO put my worries on her. hope her okay.

and 2 more things.

1. dad canceled our plan to melbourne because mom's sick and had her operation (like i said) . kinda disappointed with this.but.what else i could do?
2. bang ukan will come this sunday from melbourne. at least i could see him again. haha. so miss him actually.

gotta go guys. happy WEEKEND (rule on weekend=no BAD MOOD!) and.......nittie nite!
cup cup muah~

one more day. YEAH ONE MORE DAAAAY!

successfully, I've passed through the 4th day of my Mid-test . it was BIOLOGY and art. as you know. i hate BIOLOGY so-yes-that-bad! i don't know why.maybe because my biology lessons now are SO much different with my biology lessons when i was at my junior high.mr hario teach us with his language which i call 'xpert-english'. yeah. it IS hard enough for me. in the other hand, today's biology test Qs was made by mam rahmi . for the first time i heard that mam rahmi will make the Qs, don't know why i thought ' okay. its gonna be as easy as mam prima's Qs'. because mam rahmi use that REAL-ENGLISH not an XPERT-ENGLISH like mr hario do.but what i got this morning was 2 pieces of papers with a lot of Qs in (yeah you've guess it,right?) an XPERT-ENGLISH! damn! got my eyes burst . *lebay* finally, what i could do,was just leave it . let God work. halaaaah.hahaha.

by the way. im surprisingly happy now. guess what? after i've tried and i've tried to find my girlfriends who like BFMV (bullet for my valentine), i found YURI! at last. actually i know that she's a BFMV addict. but as i remember she ever told me that she couldnt go to that concert because of her exam. but about 5 minutes ago she greeted me at MSN and asked me out for the concert. she told me that the BFMV concert will be held at senayan (as usual) 4 th of feb 2009. and amazingly the ticket isnt so pricey. so. YEAH IM SO INTO THAT CONCERT!

i was exploring my picts in this comp. and i found my homestay photos. and i realized how i miss them so DAMN bad. those memories. it reminded me when we shopped at times square NY, slept at the bus when we waited to be arrived at PORTERVILLE, and got shouted by KAK WANTI because we disobeyed the schedule.
hiks. yuri vania evelyn windy arline anita cella sylvani audi federick ade maztra ivan kevin rifky rizky bagus reiner tepa kak wanti selly, my host fam, glenah glade and CORAL! MISS YOU GUYS SOOOOOO BAD! :') its hard for us to have a gathering now.because some of them are overseas now. :'(

anyway. gotta go yaaaa. i will have civics and religion for tomorrow. yeah i know. sooo bad. hik.
wish me luck then.
cup cup muah.

EXAM! meeeen. so uurrrgghh.

sometimes. i really happy when my mid-test exams are about to come.attention! it's SOMETIMES, okay?not every time, because when mid-test come, HOLIDAY will follow it ,right?
But when ,which i mean NOW, i face these EXAM things, i'm sooo wanting to OVER THESE THINGS out. why?

1. because on the first day of the mid-test , those computer's Qs were sooo ridiculous for me . half in Bahasa and half in english. and actually he (which i mean my computer teacher) never tought us a thing (he did.really).
2. because on the 2nd day of the mid test. which i had my math (yeah, 4 hours for math. sounds OUCH huh?) test, it seemed like the last day of my life had come. actually just for the 1st part. and thanks to mam prima she gave us such a easy Qs. :)
   
3. because on the 3rd day of the mid test (TOMORROW!) . i'll have the *backsound please.jeng jeNG JENG!* CHEMISTRY CHEMISTRY CHEMISTRY CHEMISTRY CHEMISTRY exam! GOOSH!! PLEASE lemme receive one of ur miracle to get a good score in chemist w/o studyin *keep dreamin,ra*. because the more im tryin to 'SO-INTO-IT', the less i understand (kaya lagu indie arie dah). hupf. HELP!

YEAH! my apologize if one of you , readers, (or maybe all of you), dont understand what did i write up there. its my moment-of-nuts. xp

gotta go. CHEMISTRY! COMIIINNN'!